Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I can't make my life work. Nobody will hire me and this month I am looking at losing everything. This is the first time I have ever been completely bed-ridden and looking up how to get ahold of cyanide, etc. I am afraid of people now and what they are capable of. I

I feel like the song

https://youtu.be/f5E_QOUdq1E

I feel worse than usual

I feel lonely even though I have my family right next to me. I've been crying all day for no reason, this really sucks. I am trying so hard to stay positive but for some reason I just keep feeling worse and worse. help me 😭.

Hi (I'm new here so let me know about any tips or good feeds, whatever)

I'm feeling okay today I suppose though my friend was with a bunch of other peopl so I was shut up with myself a lot today. School was okay because we had a lot of individual work so I would sit in a corner and be ok with no humiliation. Only downside today was my mom saw my scabs from my... I don't accutauly know what to call it, some form of self harm I guess. Anyways I got through that okay without much suspicion and there healing nicely to so ya... Guess that's it with out spending 20 years talking your ears off.

-G

I don't think I've been so depressed in a long time, and there's nothing I can do. I can't even die.

Everyday it feels like my head is filled with this fog, and it's really hard for me to function throughout the day. At night I get so sad and it hits me like a ton of bricks. I don't know if it's my depression or bipolar disorder or what.

I'm filled with anxiety, I'm still treated like a disease by my mom and I seem to not matter because I'm not 18, I can't express my issues because I'll be mocked by my own family for my anxiety and depression and I feel so helpless

i am filling very sad cause another one of my suports i am not doing well at all

I feel shitty. Im taking it day by day.I talk to someone and i get my hopes up and then i crash off my high again. i just want out of this dark never ending tunnel. i want to feel happy again. to enjoy things i used to. to stop crying all the time.

Today I feel okay... Not good but not bad. I still don't like waking up feeling like this

I feel a little better

School's out for winter break.. And I basically failed almost every final this week..

I'm home for two weeks and that's enough time to get myself together. I'm not saying "new year, new me" but I do need to get better.

I don't understand why everyone I meet ends up treating me like crap. Today, one of my "friends" (not anymore for sure) spread a rumor that liked someone. I don't even like them as a friend much less a crush. They found out and they won't stop looking at me with disgust. Everyone thinks I'm a freak and they won't believe me. The other people I call "friends" treat me like trash whenever I try to defend myself from this one person in the group. I just don't understand what I did wrong. I feel like such a disgrace to my parents recently. I just need some sort of end.

Today was bad. Not gonna lie. im feeling lonely and annoyed with life, mainly school. High school is depressing and i just wish i didnt have to listen to the girls behind me gossip and laugh. Takes everything in me not to turn around and tell them to shut up.

I feel exhausted and frustrated. I keep getting sent to new psychiatrists and I've only just moved here 2 months ago. They keep changing my medications every week. My stomach is in knots, I'm hallucinating more than usual, and my brain is on fire. I just wish this could have happened before I moved so that I would have my support system around me. Don't get me wrong, my dog is a great listener, but I need more. I'm 23 and living in a small town and they won't take me seriously unless I lie and say I'm suicidal (which I've thankfully never been). They just keep throwing benzos at me and call it a day. I just wish there were more options for me. Just because I'm not risking my life doesn't mean that my life isn't at risk.

I feel drained..I just wanna sleep and feel better for once

I want to feel like I did before, happy

I have been diagnosed with having clinical depression. I have good days and bad days. But most of the time I have bad days

I like I'm failing as a parent. I am a stay at home mother. I have a one year old and she is happy, healthy, provided for, and mentally advanced but I can't help to feel like I'm not doing enough. My daughter comes first before anything else including myself. I can't help but to feel like I am not only letting my daughter down, but my boyfriend and myself as well.

Today, I feel more dead than alive. Total honesty here.

Hollow

Broken

Less then human

Like I shouldn't be here anymore. I don't feel worth it.

On December 24th, it will be a full year since I've last self harmed. Yes, that's good and all, but a part of me, the cruel and heartless part of me, wishes to ruin my own success. I guess I'm not as supportive of myself like I am with others, huh...

Today I feel sad but also cautiously hopeful.

A liar surrounded by walls

I'm ok... No that is a lie

How have you been?

I've been great I'm loving life right now....sorry that is also a lie

Do you want to get to know me...just wait while I build my wall , just in case you get too close

Honesty and being transparent is a very hard thing.

True friends are in short supply, I have a handful of them but I haven't seen them in a long time.

I am as bored as it gets, I have nothing left to live for.

My faith is dead

My spirit is dead

I am without purpose

I need more out of life.

I feel numb.

I feel like a waste of space.

How do I feel? I feel like I'll never be good enough for anything. And it terrifies me that I may never amount to anything because I'm too scared to reach for what I want...

I'm just okay.. A lot better actually compared to before when I didn't know about 7 cups. Had way too many thoughts in my heard but finally when I spoke someone listened.

I been feeling depressed

I feel alone. I get really.. For lack of a better word.. irritated when people start a conversion with me.. Then outta the blue are just gone all day without a word. Makes me feel like I've done something wrong.

i feel like noone likes me , i feel like im nothing to people , felt like dying today.. oh well

I was doing great all weekend, until about 3 hours ago. It felt like a huge overpowering wave of depression hit me, like it usually does at night. I feel pretty hopeless and awful at the moment... no one really "tries" for me anymore. I put my all in and I get close to nothing back. All this just makes me feel depressed and alone.

I feel ok..but I really don't know..I just need today to end

Tired and alone

Suicidal and depressed...I feel like somethings mentally wrong with me.

I was just told I have ADD, bipolar disorder, depression, and potential psychosis, and I thought I was just a slightly more sad and high strung teenage guy. I understand you :)

https://www.facebook.com/Lilacisreal/posts/1547645805527304

How to get throgh the day when you're depressed. It really helped me.

Today, i feel really detatched, like im watching someone elses life go to shit

It's Christmas.. And I'm sadder than ever. My last boyfriend hasn't been seeing due to medical issues and I miss him so much... Today I'd his birthday... And I can't do anything but send him a text to show my love. One I don't think he'll even respond to. He's the only thing I truly wanted for Christmas. To be able to see him again and hear his voice.. He says he's coming back next school year and august is n about 8 months away.. It's still as hard for me to deal with... everyday geeks like he's leaving again and I don't know what to do

It's Christmas...I should be happy right? I'm athletic, and smart...I should be happy right? I have friends and a good family...I should be happy right? Then why aren't I? Why haven't I been happy for longer than a day these past 4 years? I know that this applies to other people reading this, and I'm just as frightened and confused.