Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
Hi....
I feel like there is no one who really care about me... I feel when we show care n affection to people, they atleast value that rather they treat us like a shit... I dont have reason to run my life.., I try to indulge myself in many activities to make myself busy..but I end up not completing it....I was very happy person, but now I lost me.. I dont like me..
@forcefulCup5806, depression can really change you. But you don't have to give it a power to define you. You are more than your struggle, lovely. You are the universe of hopes and dreams and love, and you can create yourself once again. Let go of things that don't satisfy you anymore and form new traits and habits. You can be as wild as wind, as deep as oceans, as beautiful as the sunrise.
I don't say that it is easy or painless, but that you can choose this disorder to be a moment of recreating yourself. I'm sending you all of my strength and hope, because I want you to know that this dread will not last. Everything will pass and you will be light as feather once again.
Best wishes!
Today I feel like shit. My depression and anxiety have just been spiraling out of control lately, and today I felt like I was losing it. My heartbeat has been so intense and palpable today and my insides just feel like their vibrating. I hate it. I almost broke down and went to urgent care, but I don't have medical insurance and don't need the added stress of financial burden. I just feel so lost. So so lost and alone. There's like this dam inside of me that keeps welling up and threatening to burst. I've been sitting here with calming tea, black tourmaline, burning sage, doing deep breathing but this feeling just won't pass. It's like I'm on this horrible roller coaster ride that I can't get off. Argh!
@OceanLily82, sorry that you had to experience such a nasty rollercoaster of emotions. I'm sorry you feel agitated and stressed and lost at the same time. It must be difficult for you.
Still, you are trying to cope with your jerk!brain, drinking tea and writing this post. I cannot help but be proud of you, lovely. You're doing as best as you can and it's enough to survive.
I hope today you feel a bit better. You deserve it.
Lots of love!
I feel angry, stressed, and vulnerable
It's bad enough that my life is an awful mess. Now, my dreams are torturing the hell out of me.
Wonderful @LovePom, I'm sorry that your brain doesn't let you escape even during the dreams. It can be really exhausting and frustrating to have recurring nightmares of any kind and intensity. It must be really challenging for you.
I hope today the night will be more gentle with you and let you dream peacefully. You deserve all of the visions of hope and sweetness. Let me know how did you sleep today, lovely.
Lots of love!
Triggered. Life is so delicate, it can be taken away from you in seconds. I'm so scared. I'm really freaking scared. I don't think I actually want to die, I just don't know how to live. I want to get better but I'm tired of trying and getting nothing in return. I know I have a really long road ahead of me and I'm going to keep holding on. I would never act on my thoughts but they still sadden me. Why am I so messed up? Why do I hate myself so much? Why am I always depressed and anxious? Why aren't I getting better?
@RaspberryKitten, wonderful, it seems like you have something heavy on your mind. Would you like to talk about it more? Here, in forums? Or maybe you would like to try 1-on-1 chat with a listener? I find this also quite helpful.
That's okay, lovely, to feel lost and confused and tired - we also don't have any answers, but it doesn't mean we should to give in. Living is hard and seems hopeless, but this disorder skews our perception. And there was a time in our life that we could actually enjoy something. So it means there is a high chance this darkness will also go away. It is a long road ahead, but you are not alone in this journey. We are here with you. You have our support. You can lean on and rest for a while and our strong arms won't let you go.
All my love, fellow warrior!
I feel frustrated, ashamed,like a shit.....
I just feel really soo bad, heart broken...
Hw can i do this to me..but am just coward..am not able to right decision...I feel really worthless...
@forcefulCup5806, it seems like you are really overwhelmed, lovely. I think there is a lot of things going on in your life. That's okay, lovely. You can feel so low and dreadful, but know you are not alone. We are here for you. We care. If you want to talk to any of us, just try 1-on-1 chat with a listener or enter the support rooms. We will shower you with support, wonderful, because you deserve it.
*hugs tightly*
I want to get under my covers curl into a ball and cry my eyes out :(
@FadingAway, sorry that you felt so low yesterday. It is hard to feel on the verge of tears throughout the day. Still, sometimes letting yourself to cry is really helpful and can relieve you from pressure for a while. And it is worth this little moment of while.
I hope today was better. Sending you lots of hugs, lovely!
confused....I know this feeling is coming. How could I possibly have been happy for three days in a row with no headaches? Idk If I can actually feel it or if I want to feel it - has it become my security blanket?
@Elinxs27, sorry to hear that your head decided to hurt you. Headaches are pesky and frustrating and can ruin a perfect day just because they obscure our vision. It's a hard thing to get by and if it's chronic, it really makes life harder.
Still, I hope you feel a bit better now and can enjoy the peace of silence. Sending you best wishes!
I've had such a hard time with just everything in life. It's like everything is hitting me. I am repeatedly being shot by bullets begging for everyone to cease fire but I have too many holes in my body. And I'm empty. Everything seems to be crashing down. I'm finding myself losing hope. All the strength that I thought I had has vanished and I can't push through. I'm in a hole. I've stuck my hand out for days hoping someone would grab it. But nobody showed up. So now I've given up. There is no longer a need for me to be here. I do not want to be here. I'm alone. And can't be helped.
@nicolecamposm, I'm sorry that you feel that way, lovely. It must be really hard for you. I want to hug you tightly and draw all of your pain from your mind, heart, and body, so you could feel at rest, even if only for a little while.
Can I make somehow this passing minutes a bit better for you? Would you like some kind of a distraction? Maybe soothing sounds? Show? Or a song? ? A cute live animal feed? A game? A relaxing video? Or would you like to talk to me? I'm not a listener, but still I care about you. I'd love to ease your heartache, help you carry this unbearable weight, because you don't deserve it.
Sending soft pillows, a blanket, a bright night sky and stars for you to admire. Hugs!
I'm done. I give up. I've reached out for help so many times that I can't do it again. I'm clearly not ment to be helped.
I'm so tired of fighting this losing battle.im just done.
@ilikeyellow, it's okay to feel tired, lovely. Pretending to be tougher than our struggles and indifferent to them can be exhausting. But you don't have to always stand tall. You can lay down, you can rest, you can let go and listen to the beating of your own heart. You can doubt and be afraid. You can reach out to us and talk about the turmoil in your head. It's okay. You can be in pain, but you don't have to suffer. It's okay.
We are here for you. We will listen.
*hugs*
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Hey everyone on this thread or subscribed to it, I have been through death of immediate family members,mental health issues and basically hell and back. But I live by this Japanese quote:- Fall down seven times, rise up eight. Dont give up. If u fail get up try again.:)
Thank you, @PhoenixRise, for sharing this quote with us. It is quite inspiring ^^
Wishing you a splendid day, darling!
