Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
I slept in all day and I didn't leave the bed until after 12pm I wasn't sleeping I was just laying there looking out the window watching the wind blow the trees and my solar powered bobble head shake. I feel like my depression is guilt driven from my break up. I know I am wrong and I'm unhappy and sad all of the time because I don't know how to cope with the guilt.
@calmEast4981 I am so sorry about the breakup. They are very hard on a person, and I can't even imagine how you must feel right now, so I won't try to relate. But they can bring feelings of guilt, as you said. Do you know why you feel guilty, if I may ask? I wish you the best, and remember, you just have more time to look for the right person <3
I didn't appreciate the things he did for me I am very self conscious so I always need a lot of verification in a relationship because I feel like I'm not good enough. I never took his advice and I was very selfish about my decisions cause I only did things to beneifit me and my insecurities.
@calmEast4981 Doing things to make you feel better about yourself is never selfish, in my opinion. If you feel insecure, chances are, you hate that feeling, right? So you'd want it to go away, and you'd use methods to do that. You said you need a lot if verification in a relationship, that's fine! You just need someone who wants to help you out and give you that verification. I hope you'll be okay soon <3
My family doesn't care about my life so why should I? I can't please them. I'll never be what they want me to be
@BlackKitten13 I know it's very hard to be in your situation. It feels like there's nowhere to turn, no one to let you talk. But I'm glad you came here. If I may ask, are you feeling suicidal or anything else like that? Your post implied that, and I am a bit worried...
If you need to, please call a suicide hotline. If you can't, then there are online chat-lines like crisischat.org and imalive.org. I promise, it gets better, no matter how long that takes. I hope you can get better <3 Best of luck and take care
Sometimes I feel the same way. Im only staying woth mopu mom so she would pay for college
I feel frustrated with myself.
I just want to be able to talk to people without having to stumble over my words, or think really hard about what I'm going to say to hold a conversation. So many thoughts clouding my mind all at once, I always say the wrong thing.
I want to be involved in the lives of those I care about, without getting paranoid that they only tolerate my presence because they're my family, or because I'm dating their friend.
I want to be able to go out and not worry about what I look like, I want to be confident.
I want to stop lying compulsively to people in a pathetic and naive attempt to get them to like me, to fool them into thinking I'm interesting.
I want to stop segregating myself from people, I want to make an honest effort, why can't I? It's so easy to pick up a phone and get in contact, it's so easy to just tell the truth. So why do I make it so hard for myself?
I don't feel like I belong anywhere, I don't even know if I care all that much. I guess I must do if I'm here.... I know it's all in my head, I'm just being stupid. I know that the only problem is me, and I know that I'm the only solution to my complaints, I just can't fix myself. I don't even know who I am.
So I guess what I'm feeling today, like most days, is lost.
I know how you feel. I was having the same thoughts then it was all ok but lately they are coming back. I don't know if it is any help but i read you post and just wanted you to know that you are not alone, i may not care much for the people i know but this easier for me to tell you this. Try, just try dont push yourself to have a good day hun!
It is good to know that I am not the only one feeling this way. I thank you for the strength you show in sharing this.
I feel scared and alone. I'm afraid the love of my life will forget about me while she is in a mental hospital and I can't visit her and one cares enough to listen anymore
@indigoCake3505 I am so sorry, that seems terribly hard to go through. Your worries are completely valid, it's fine <3 What makes you think that?
Exhausted, and numb
@EdmondDantes I feel the same way, and it's rough, isn't it? I know it's hard (and confusing!), but you're stronger than your depression <3. Kick your depression in the face because it's way too bad for you. You can do it, I know it! If that seems to daunting, then try a self care day <3 Small steps are perfect
You're quite a wonderful person.
I feel absolutely exhausted and numb. I'm so tired of everything. I'm scared and feel so lonely.
@poohbear15, you deserve some rest, darling. Pretending to be tougher than our struggles and indifferent to them can be exhausting. But you don't have to always stand tall. You can lay down, you can rest, you can let go and listen to the beating of your own heart. You can doubt and be afraid. You can reach out to us and talk about the turmoil in your head. It's okay. You can be in pain, but you don't have to suffer.
Hugging you so much right now, wonderful!
I feel horrible and my anxiety is driving me crazy but my mom tells me to shake it off but she doesn't know how bad it's gotten
@calmCup1214, sorry to hear your mom cannot fully comprehend your anxiety. This is a very hard thing to do for a neurotypical person to imagine to be constantly overwhelmed and worried and sad and hurt and anxious.
I understand that you tried already to talk to her, am I correct, lovely? So have you consider writing her a letter? I find that writing down my feelings and thoughts makes it so much easier for me, because I don't have to confront anybody. And it gives time for other person to process everything and to try to understand my point.
Sending you all of my strength!
Well hi... My name is Lucy and I dont't really know what to do I'm like stuck. I just don't feel a thing! I feel like I'm done with life. I was super talkative and I'm all quite now. And I've changed for bad a lot, like being less happy I don't know why but at the same time I'm not unhappy I don't know I just don't feel....
@LostIt1809, depression really changes person. But that's okay. You can find your broken pieces and mend yourself. And re-invent yourself all together and find new truths for your life. Life is all about changing and learning and outgrowing old skins, so use this opportunity to start fresh and let go of dead things, like trees do in Autumn.
Sending you all of my strength and hope, fellow warrior! I believe in you, lovely.
I feel lonely. Like nothing I do matters in the end.
@energeticSpring4866, you feel lonely and discouraged, and yet you have reached out to us. That was brave of you, lovely. I'm proud of you.
*hugs*
Maybe nothing really matters, but in the end I think you and I matter, and also things which we decided to put our time and energy into. We have scarce supply of both of them, so it's pretty important what we want to focus on. You are here, in this community who values kindness and compassion, and I think it is worth your time in this universe. Looking for connections is admirable.
I hope you feel a bit better today. Lots of love!
I'm scared about what life I'll allow myself to choose and just about the future in general I guess.
@AwkwardAce1563, I can relate to that overwhelming feeling when thinking about the looming future. I often stressed about it and worry that it will be painful or inadaquete or wrong, but then again, I can only shape my future by small acts taking in the present moment. So in the end there is no point of stressing about what will come, when what really matters is now ^^;
I don't know if it makes any sense to you, lovely. Still I hope you will have a kind and nice "now" to relieve you from anxiety. Sending hugs!
Thank you, that really helps ^^
@AwkwardAce1563, glad to know that ^^ Wishing you a wonderful day!
