Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I used this for the first time last night.

I felt tired, empty and lost. I'm sick of feeling like an empty shell and my meds aren't working anymore. I have too many highs and lows at the moment.

Someone on here spoke to me through IM for hours and made me feel safe enough to not hurt myself or do anything else. I really appreciate her for that. I woke up today still feeling crap but took control and made an emergency GP appointment to discuss how i am feeling and my medication. I also then made another referral to do cognetive behaviour therapy when i'm feeling more stable.

Completely and utterly just disappointed with myself. It's never a surprise anymore. I deactivate my dA account and now I have to wait two days to get it back. Job well done for panicking, me.

I'm feeling better ... Confirmation that people actually do care was such a good thing for me yesterday. Trying to be positive and survive day to day.

We care because we've all been there. Xxx

I honestly feel like taking a shower.. eating something then being in bed by 1600. I can't deal right now

I got through another day!! Nervous and scared. I start rape counselling tomorrow. Nervous about opening up a can of worms. I just can't wait for bedtime every day.

sad & worthless.

Like hiding under my desk and rocking back and forth nude a blanket. Instead I'm making calls and getting stuff done. I'd rather be asleep.

*under. Not nude. Yikes haha

Thank you, that made me smile...spell correction has gotten me into trouble before too

@TheSirenCalledLorelei

It's awesome that you're getting stuff done though! I hope you got everything you needed to done and that now you're able to relax and sleep a while. <3

lost alone gone. the darkness is consuming me. i want to let it take me.

I am currently feeling lost and confused about what direction I should take for my future. I feel as though everyone else my age (college - aged) knows exactly what they desire in life, while I am still stuck.

@courtly25 -- Don't feel so bad about not knowing what you want in life... where you want to go... what you want to do. I'm in my 40s and I still don't know! I definitely feel like everyone my age knows exactly what they want... You are definitely not alone!

What I wish someone told me when I was much younger -- Make 2 columns - in the first, write a list of what you love to do. Doesn't have to be a school subject -- just anything you enjoy. Then, in the other column, write jobs/careers that might correspond to those things you enjoy (if you can... there is probably not a career that corresponds to sleep, for example, which is something I enjoy ). Update the list as needed.

If someone told me to do this back in college, I might be an architectural engineer or something right now... instead of unemployed.

And remind yourself that you don't have to have it all figured out!

I feel like shit, school sucks and today I made my girlfriend give up on another one of her friends as she decides to plunge into the depths of isolation and accepts the fact that she is drowning in my possessively caring personality and we have to find happiness in the darkness for I eclipse the light she once had. And only I can see that light now.

Extremely frustrated and less worthy

I feel like being alone. Some place quiet forever. and wondering where did i go wrong.

What makes you think you went wrong?

Hopeless, sad for loved ones, and ready to give up. Ah well

I feel overwhelmed and afraid.

i just feel sad and annoying and almost inadequate. i'm in a rut again.. i just want to get out and i don't want to keep faking like i'm okay.

Depressed. Had a really bad morning and now I can't shake it. :(

Woke up sad. Hate when that happens. There's no reason and it keeps me down for days.

I feel like dirt.. feel alone, sad, angry that My head is full of darkness

I WANT TO SCREAM

I just want someone to sit with me and understand.

I feel horrible.. Nearly passed out a bit ago.. Now my head hurts and I can't sleep yet..ugh

great and not.

I feel stressed. College applications are due pretty soon and I'm starting to panic.

Stressed but I have accomplished quite a lot for one day. Preparing for my big move to university has been hectic but today I feel good, despite only getting 4 hours of sleep last night. Why do I feel more awake with little sleep than with a normal amount of sleep? Strange

Moved away from home back to uni for my second year, and I can't help but feel disappointed at how I don't feel as happy as I want to. I feel this sense of foreboding and just sad and down like I've been at home and it's upsetting me :(

I don't know how I feel right now. It's confusing and I wish I wasn't so numb.

my feelings have been like a rollercoaster here or late, its awful when depression comes back and hits you like a brick wall out of nowhere. I wish it would go away

I don't know. It's a roller coaster. Mainly stressed. Anxious.

@scarletJet471

It can be super hard to deal with your emotions when they keep going up and down. I think the best thing to do in these situations is to just try your best to detach yourself from your emotions. Since you say you're feeling stressed and anxious, I hope you've been filling your days with de-stressing activities! Stay safe <3

I'm literally crying right now, I was rejected twice by the guy I have loved since eighth grade and I thought he liked me too, since we talked daily for hours. That was until my best friend told me he liked someone else, and that was five minutes ago and I just.

@Suiren

That must feel absolutely awful and I'm terribly sorry that you got rejected. Please don't forget that you are not a reflection of those that don't love you, and you're wonderful. You can get through this. <3

Like shit

@Feralady

Would you like to talk some more about it? Or if you don't feel comfortable talking about it so openly here, perhaps connecting with a listener 1-1 would be a good idea as well! I hope you're feeling better now since I'm a day or so late. <3

I feel sad and lonely. From afar you might see me as this happy girl who loves to laugh and smile.. The girl whos popular and adored by other people but they dont see how much i am struggling inside. I have anger issues in where I cant control myself when being angry and emotional self harm. I just never let myself be too happy.. I always find myself wanting to feel those heart quench.