Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
Honestly today I just feel numb. I'm just waiting for the end of the day so I can go home. I don't even know why tbh. I'll probably just avoid everyone and sleep.
Feeling numb is awful and I'm sorry your day is unkind to you, @verdantautomaton. I hope you will do something to relax, lovely. You deserve it after such a brave, long fight during the whole week.
Lots of love!
I'm sad and anxious. I wanna scream and cry and run away all at the same time. I'm reading school because I have to see my girlfriend and I don't really wanna see her because I'm just not in the mood to be hugged or kissed and it's not fair to her that I'm being like this.
But we are glad you can be honest here.
@Brokenbuttrying213 - I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling this way. Perhaps explaining these things to your girlfriend would be a good idea? After all, relationships are built around communication. It's not your fault that you're feeling this way. I hope you feel better soon! x
TW: suicide mention
I feel empty. These past few days have been really draining on me.
I feel like falling asleep and never waking. I just don't care anymore because caring about others has only ever gotten me hurt. People are cruel and people will use you for their own ends without ever considering you as your own person.
I wrote a suicide note last night. Right now I'm not actively considering it because I'm too numb and don't really know what I'm feeling, but last night I just felt angry and afraid.
Honestly it was more of a vent than an actual note. But it still helped me get my feelings out. Hopefully today I can distract myself but so far I've just been lying here in bed remembering things that hurt to remember.
@bravestwarrior, I'm sorry that you feel disappointed in humanity. I'm sorry that so many people hurt you in the past - you are worth so much more. You feel awful, and these fears and worries can really drain all of the energy. It's ok to feel tired and empty. No emotion is final.
Venting is great, and I'm glad you joint down your feelings. I encourage you to visit this website. Recently I was in a similar position as you and talking with person from there makes me feel a bit lighter. They are very kind and they give me some ideas how to tackle my own problems - that's why I recommend it. It's just a simple chat, nothing more, but it is worth your minutes.
Sending you lots of love!
@bravestwarrior - It's really good that you got all of that off your chest. I hope you're feeling better both from the letter and from talking about it here. Like @Spes said, you deserve a lot more than people treating you that way, and I hope one day you find people that treat you as you should be. I'd also like to share my own resources:
Crisis Text Line: 741-741 (Text "start")
Here's a 24-hour online crisis chat
International Suicide Hotlines
I hope you're feeling better about things soon. Please try to stay safe, okay? x
I feel awful today, actually. My best friend saw my cuts and scars on my legs and arms and now she thinks I am insane. Everything annoyed me today, everything just went wrong. However I tried, I was tired all day and I couldn't focus on anything. Today was the everything-wrong day, that's how I call it.
Sometimes I just go with my crappy day. It's ok to have them. Because then there will be better days, and great days. I am sorry your friend was so judgemental. People tend to be scared of things they don't understand. And you need friends to accept you, your pain. Don't completely shut the door she may come around. Never be ashamed of your scars it shows you survived.
I'm sorry to hear your day was that bad, @mental. Sometimes there is nothing else to do than to grit our teeth and wait for the passing time to bring us a kinder tomorrow. And you are not insane. You are so much more than your struggle. You have depression, and that's it. It doesn't define you, you didn't choose it, it's not your fault. Nobody wants this sorrow and pain. We know that and we care about you.
I hope your weekend will be so much better, lovely. Please, remember to take a god care of yourself, you deserve it!
@mental - I've found that sometimes it can be good to have a bad day here and there. It reminds you of how good some of your days have been. Another thing it makes me think about is how no matter how bad my days have been, I've always gotten through them. I'm sure things seem bleak now, but what's done is done, so why not take some time to do something you enjoy and attempt to make yourself feel better? x
To be honest, I feel terrible today. I found out today that a person who used to have a crush on me totally and completely got over me just as I was starting to get feelings for them... The problem is, I've got a girlfriend and I kind of like someone else... I feel like crap for feeling this way cuz I LOVE my girlfriend and stuff.. On top of all of this, I'm transgender ftm and considering coming out to my family... The dysphoria has been hurting me so much recently, and I can't handle it... I just want to bring this to an end, honestly... I want to be done.
Hi @DanielB - I'm sorry you're not feeling great today. Crushes are difficult and love can be too. You're not a bad person for feeling the way that you're feeling. Perhaps you just need to take a step back and reflect?
I really hope that coming out goes well for you, if you do choose to do it. You also sound like you're feeling really down. If you need someone to talk to during a crisis you can go to one of these places:
Crisis Text Line: 741-741 (text "start")
Suicide Prevention Online Chat
International Suicide Hotlines
Best of luck, I'll be thinking of you. Please stay safe.
I feel happy,but ashamed,lonely,useless,fat,unwanted,torn,betrayed,and I also feel like a failure at the same time.
@Braelynne32 - I'm really glad to hear that you're happy, but why all the other feelings? Would you like to talk some more about it? I hope you're well x
I'm sad.
Its been a long week.
so much is out of my control.
ive put on a brave front so many times these past few days.
im tired.
im finally alone in the house, so I can cry freely.
@easyWater4109 - Crying is good! I hope you feel better now that you've had your cry. Sometimes that's all we need to start feeling better about a bad week, but if you need to talk to someone, you know where to find a listener. x
Thank you🌼
i cried while my cats watched/cleaned themselves.
ate a small piece of dark chocolate
turned on some music
and then took a bath😌
im not going to let this world get me down tonight.
@easyWater4109 - That sounds lovely <3 That's a great thought process to have, keep it! (:
Happy Friday
Thank you @easyWater4109!
I hope your Friday was also a happy one ^^
I hope everyone has a good weekend! <3
Everyday I have to remind myself not to give up. Sometimes I wonder why I'm alive. I'm scared of getting close to people cause I'm a mess and they always betray you. I need love but don't know how to get it.
Sorry to hear you feel awful, @blackvenus09. I also need to remind myself to keep trying, to keep pushing myself, and it is exhausting. It feels hopeless. But it doesn't mean that it is that way. Our feelings are not the reality - they are just a fleeting bystanders, and we shouldn't get attached to them as much as we tend to.
It is enough to try every day, To just do as best as you can, regardless of the progress. Surviving is enough.
Sending you lots of hugs!