Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I to am feeling bored and unmotivated. I actually reserching online mental health and thats why Im here to see how it works .. but Im still feeling a bit down as I dont have a job

Today I feel physically exhausted because of the nightmare my thoughts are putting me through but I feel hopeful that today I will win.

I feel desperate. Eventhough i have been in this country for 10 years I want to go back. I'm tired of being alone and missing out and I'm terrified I'm going to lose another family member I don't get to say goodbye too. But this is the home of my kids and if I go back I'll have to raise them by myself and provide for 3 kids and they are going to have to learn a new language and miss their father. I just don't know what to do and am wondering if they are better of without me in this world

I feel dead. Just so empty. Triggered to, I would love a smoke but would rather get a razor. But there is no point. I've self harmed for 6 years and sense I was hospitalized for trying to kill my self two years ago I had stopped. I never wanted to leave the hospital. I didn't want to go home or go to school because I always felt judged and left out. I was safe in the hospital. Having just gotten into an argument with me mother who oh so kindly reminded me that I was trash and made sure that I felt like it I'm once again at the place that I had been two years ago. The one difference is I'm not dragging a razor through my wrist trying to cut a vain. I'm just laying in bed practically dead.

I feel sad. i am severely sleep deprived and it made me so angry this morning i wanted to beat myself up...

Numb...

I feel nothing. My medication makes it worse. The visionary and auditory hallucinations are worse and I want to die.

Idk what I feel anymore...why should I bother trying

Lonely, afraid, hurt, disappointed and unwanted. I feel trapped by what haunts me, myself and the lies people have hurt me with. I am tired of giving so much of myself to be lied to. I feel people use me. I am disappointed in myself for falling apart inside.