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im not doing well at all just getting worse thoughts getting worse depression worse everything is worse. ik im so lucky to have a fab support circle but not enough anymore, i need professional help so im gonna ask my parents for a therapist. except i am bad at opening up so probably even the therapist won’t rlly be able to help cos they won’t even know what’s wrong with me. heck i barely know what’s wrong with me myself.
The therapist is there to help you process. They know people are scared and don't open up easily. Be sure to say that in your first meeting. You aren't supposed to know what is wrong or how to fix it right now. You just have to be brave enough to take that first step. It sounds like you are doing that. @Phoenix1234theythem
@bestVase7265
thank you so much❤️❤️yea i guess ive taken a first step but if talking to people is step one then ive been stuck on that step for months :(
It is indeed a slow process and sometimes it doesn't feel like you are moving. But you are doing the right things, the brave things. It is those who don't talk to others or to therapists that often have the most trouble progressing.
Feel free to come here and just vent on this thread any time that you want. I usually respond in a day or two and it can really help to have people on your side cheering you onwards. @Phoenix1234theythem
@bestVase7265
thank you so much, you’re so kind and I barely know you, I appreciate it so so much ❤️❤️
I really like getting to know other people and helping them. It helps me too.
How was today for you? @Phoenix1234theythem
@bestVase7265
thats good! uh today was kind of hazy for me, hbu?
Mine was pretty okay today. One of those where you wonder all the anxiety and stuff disappeared to and how soon it will be back.
Hopefully today was less hazy for you. @Phoenix1234theythem
@bestVase7265
glad to hear that but also those days can be bittersweet because of the “when-will-it-be-bad-again?”
my day was just like every other day they all blur together
What makes them feel like they are blurring together? @Phoenix1234theythem
@bestVase7265
idk am just exhausted sorry 😭
No need to apologize. What is making things exhausting today? Sometimes it helps to name things. @Phoenix1234theythem
@bestVase7265
im not sure sometimes it’s just a feeling and no reason for it to be there, today was tiring but okay tho because we had nutcracker dress rehearsal :) how was your day?
It was my birthday and it was pretty okay. People kept trying to feed me way too much cake.
So are you performing in The Nutcracker? That sounds like a fun thing to be doing. @Phoenix1234theythem
@bestVase7265
oh my gosh happy birthday!! How old are u if u don’t mind me asking? Apart from too much cake I hope you had a great day :)
Yeah I’m in nutcracker, it’s super fun :))) the first show was tonight!
I am so glad to hear that you are in The Nutcracker. That takes so much hard work! How many performances are there?
Let's say that I am way, way too old to be in The Nutcracker. I have about 10 years before I will be retiring.
But I have always been more of a singer than a dancer. Music does really help with all of the depression stuff, doesn't it? @Phoenix1234theythem
@bestVase7265
there are three performances, we’ve done two now :)
oh ok 😂 music does help tho, yes!
Just got back from seeing Wicked. It was well done. Another way to enjoy music.
I hope your final performance goes well and everyone enjoys it!
@Phoenix1234theythem
@bestVase7265
cool i saw it too it’s rlly good
yea it went well im sad its over
It was indeed good. I am glad all the performances went well. How often do you dance? Is it a weekly class? Keep looking for those things that bring you joy. @Phoenix1234theythem
@bestVase7265
i dance for 6 hours a week, but it was more when there were also nut rehearsals
How have things been going for you? @Phoenix1234theythem
@bestVase7265
not horrible idk each day is different. im just so tired. how are you?
About the same as you ... too much schoolwork stress, too little time to enjoy everything else. @Phoenix1234theythem
@bestVase7265
aw im sorry
It's okay. Normal for this time of year. @Phoenix1234theythem
I hope that your holiday went well. @Phoenix1234theythem
Someone needs to help me too
@secretTree7855
u okay? im here if u want to talk❤️
this is so relatable. we will hang in there 🥲
I have trouble sharing things too or even knowing what to talk about and ive found it a little helpful to take notes of things when I notice them that I would like to talk about with them, writing helps me to sort through some thoughts as well. It may be something to try.
Therapy is always worth a shot. The right therapist can be a truly life changing thing. They allow to share stuff at your own pace. And will be caring and compassionate to your unique situation, experiences and circumstances. If they are not, then find another one. The right one should make you feel safe to share she open up with. It's a process, baby steps. Take care Phoenix, Drift
I was diagnosed with depression about 2yrs ago and it was a long time coming for me…later that year i started therapy, told my therapist that I don’t need to be here, and since then I’ve been in therapy for 2yrs now and I have seen some growth….its really tough, i completely understand and agree and from time to time im still like why am I here but it has helped me so much and there’s still much work to be done…I have heard it’s a challenge to find a therapist that is actually there for you…speak with your primary care physician because that’s how I got mine…I’m currently going through a depression episode, all month and it’s also my bday month 🙃 so I get it completely…just try it out and you of course have the right to stop at anytime
How are you doing? How can I help?
@Phylomena
aw thank you ❤️ im doing umm.. was better during the holidays but now school is starting and yeah. hbu?