Weekly Prompt #38: Imagine a perfect day where you feel neither lonely nor depressed. Describe what that day would look like.

Today was my favourite singer's concert, but I was unable to go because no one cared about my wishes and did not want to go with me, and they considered what I was asking to be trivial. Because I had never been to the concert venue before and did not know how to get there, I did not go.

For this reason, I will imagine that the circumstances are so perfect that I go to the party. Well, the party is at 7pm so to arrive on time I will leave my house at 4pm. It's hot and very humid today but that's okay, I'll listen to some songs on the way because I haven't listened to all the songs from the last album yet. Well, I've arrived, but I need to go to the ladies' room to arrange my outfit after travelling. The party starts in half an hour. The place I chose is far from the stage, but it's okay, it will start now. How wonderful that is. Do those sitting in the front row feel that he is singing to each one of them alone? It looks like he's going to end the party, will I be able to reach him to take a selfie with him? It looks cute even though I was about to fall but it's okay I have to go home now.

@ASilentObserver

Oh to have a day with my boyfriend, where i just got to see his beautiful face and shiny eyes, to hear his laugh and smile. We would have an icecream date, just like he promised me. Thinking about the old days and the passing memories we had together. I would play with his hair while he is falling asleep on my arm. But this stupid distance that i always hated, it ruined everything.  I doubt seeing my lovely boy ever again, but my heart will beat for him forever.

@ASilentObserver 

When I imagine true peace, I imagine laughter and smiles, sunshine and good weather, good company and conversations. Most of my happiest moments is when all my loved ones are around me, and my loved ones being happy as well to be there. 

I just came to this community today. I was looking for a therapist as recently in the last year I moved across the country to start my career goals, pursuing a masters, and getting a job. With these accomplishments I am proud, but finding that I am more and more anxious, stressed, and depressed that i have not experienced such heightened emotions in a while. I am a person who typically is optimistic and persistent, but now I am finding that I am lacking trust in myself, causing me to overthink even my own value and worth. I have based a lot of my value and worth on the acts of services and reciprocation of it with the people around me. Since moving here, I have found myself burnt out, emotionally and mentally due to constant criticisms of the lack of what I provide. Intention-wise, I do not wish to be burdensome, but rather I know I can do what needs to be done in all aspects, career, academic, and relationship goals to be happy, and consistent and to promote growth all around. I fear though, that my actions and intent being misperceived is something that I can not control, so what can I do besides explain myself to the best of my ability, even when there a frog in my throat, and a tightness in my chest, I try and want to try, but what is it exactly that I am not seeing. I wonder. 

I used to write a lot, and I am realizing how important it is to truly write my thoughts down. It instills validity and trust in knowing myself, my reactions, and my emotions entirely. 

i believe wholeheartedly this peace is achievable. By the grace of god! 

@ASilentObserver

I’m trying to imagine it. Not easy. I’m starting to wonder if there’s anything left of me without depression/anxiety/self-sabotage/guilt. But as I stated this, my mind, which likes to contradict my conclusions the moment I come up with them, shows me the pictures of me laughing, dancing, singing. So yeah, there are a moments like that. Yet most of them feel like decompenstation, when I am so worn out, something snaps, and I say one big f-word to the world, I don't care anymore. 

I don't know if I still believe that it can be different. It can only be less painful at moments. 

@ASilentObserver I'd imagine my day would be the same, without having to worry and spend my morning researching :)

Well, for me I think itd be just hanging out with my cats, with something outside going on like a nice thunderstorm. Probably playing video games as well, I think that would be really nice

@ASilentObserver

Imagine a perfect day where you feel neither lonely nor depressed. Describe what that day would look like.

I’m not lonely or depressed any day, any night bc I have the best company 24/7 - me! As long as I’m with me, whether anyone who’s company I like or don’t mind being around me or not, it’s as perfect a day as I can have :)

PS: Considering this began June 11, looks like I’m a little late but you know what they always say “better late than never” 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 but it doesn’t apply to work or school or a date 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

Great question! Thanks for asking! ❤️

This could be any day. A day at home. I day at work. On days I am not depressed I try to get things done that I can't do when I'm depressed. This tends to give me anxiety, though because I know I have a finite amount of time.

im looking forward to a day I can finish all my tasks and spare some time for myself reading books or just relaxing

@AslientObserver I think I’ll feel free. Like at peace in a way. There would be no bad thoughts in my head and would just focus on the present… well the good things actually. I don’t know how to explain it but I’ll feel at peace.