Want my smile again on my face
I m depressed, anxious, in stress.
Don't have enough money to treat myself.
Can't share it with parents,
Because it will take much time.
And also i m not in condition to do so.
And i think a true frnd can solve all my prblm. I just need some one to talk and to express my self
Ok on 4 Sept 2021 I went to hostel.
I don't know anyone there. Nor my parents talked me on call,. So things started getting wrong,
As u can fell.
Depression started hitting me.
My study get poored.
I can't do the things, what I liked
I have shared my situation with approx 50 people s Only 6 doesn't made fun of me. And only 1 irtequa understood my prblms. And rest 5 just didn't made fun of me....
She is in normal Indian family. So she have to face many prblms. Even just for chatting with. We had talked on call just for 1 time for 2 hrs.
And due to my depression and mood disturbance.
I have to msg her almost always at
wrong time.
I can't contact her when, I m in need of her the most...
Actually, yesterday i have used.
The word periods for 1st time
And from then im blancked
Things get awkward for me... It will take a week to normalize....
most.
@Babac This must be very overwhelming for you. But i am proud of you for having come so far.
@Babac Hi Babac. I am reading two books that have really helped me. Feeling Good and the 10 best ever Anxiety Management Techniques. They give you good insight on what the causes are of depression and anxiety and how the brain functions. I know you said you can’t afford treatment but there might be free treatment in your city or at your school. I would check into it.
If u can..
Then I can survive..
Otherwise I can see death in front of my eyes...😔😔
Sending strength and peace. You will find lots of that here as you continue to tell your story. @Babac
How are you doing now? I have been thinking about you.
Everything is coming on track, except i m not clear abt my that frnd..
Can u give some ideas ,to clear the blurness between us?
What kind of blurriness are you talking about? @Babac
I don't know , what I meant to her in her life
Just a human or just a frnd or special frnd orBFF Or something else.
And now this is becoming the reason of my anxiety, stress and low mood and other things.
So have you considered writing that to her? Then you could say something about not knowing how she feels makes it a little tough on you because you want her to enjoy being with you. That might open up a conversation a bit. But it is the kind of thing that you need to be gentle with because sometimes people aren't really thinking much about how they feel and don't know how to respond to the question. Does that make sense?@Babac
Yes ofcourse u r 100% clear.
But there is prblm.
When i ask her about these things then
she thought these questions
as nonsense.
And change the topic. And i also understand that this is
*nonsense*
For some people such questions are really awkward because they don't like to think that deeply about their relationships. They just want to live them day to day.
Could that also be true here? What would it mean to you if there was no easy way to find out her true feelings? @bestVase7265
It makes tons of sense for you to want to understand her feelings better. But sometimes the person your asking can't answer the question because their brain operates differently than yours does.
What do you fear most in not having your questions about the relationship answered? There are always other angles that you can work from to help you feel better. Maybe understanding yourself better here would help. @Babac
@Babac
Thanks for sharing Babac. Valid concerns. Good to get 2nd opinion on things. Please don't give up. If you really do not like your studies I will share a story.
A friend majorly didn't think something fit so he just changed majors. At the end the major does not determine career unless specialization required. Have you had a chance to talk or meet w career professionals who are on the field working a the job you'd like?
Some have had easier ways by connecting directly to a specific company of friends or where many alumni have landed roles.
Speaking & Listening to Community really helped for some friends especially where landing comedian colleagues 😄.
can't say friend we're also for many times experiencing much mental health care during the major time of College or high school. Majorly stressful at certain times.
Everyone says have fun but during stressful times can get a little more uneasy. Companionship has been a major help often for friends. Joining clubs or attending tutoring sessions also helps to optimize time while assist studies for many friends and build resume.
Best of Next Steps 🪜 Babac 🤍
