Want my smile again on my face

@Babac

your voice is heard. I feel deep sadness for your story. Now, 7 did not laugh.

Hey....

How can u help me...

@Babac This must be very overwhelming for you. But i am proud of you for having come so far.

@Babac Hi Babac. I am reading two books that have really helped me. Feeling Good and the 10 best ever Anxiety Management Techniques. They give you good insight on what the causes are of depression and anxiety and how the brain functions. I know you said you can’t afford treatment but there might be free treatment in your city or at your school. I would check into it.

If u can..

Then I can survive..

Otherwise I can see death in front of my eyes...😔😔

@Babac You got this. I would try reading the books I suggested. I would also try to see a Dr and maybe try some medication to ease your anxiety and depression. I’m here and all of us are here on 7 Cups to listen and help you anytime.

Yes

Sending strength and peace. You will find lots of that here as you continue to tell your story. @Babac

How are you doing now? I have been thinking about you.

Everything is coming on track, except i m not clear abt my that frnd..

Can u give some ideas ,to clear the blurness between us?

What kind of blurriness are you talking about? @Babac

I don't know , what I meant to her in her life

Just a human or just a frnd or special frnd orBFF Or something else.

And now this is becoming the reason of my anxiety, stress and low mood and other things.

Ah, now I understand better. How do you view her? Would it help to start by writing that out?@Babac

My side is clear , I just want to be in her life, as anything she want to keep.

So have you considered writing that to her? Then you could say something about not knowing how she feels makes it a little tough on you because you want her to enjoy being with you. That might open up a conversation a bit. But it is the kind of thing that you need to be gentle with because sometimes people aren't really thinking much about how they feel and don't know how to respond to the question. Does that make sense?@Babac

Yes ofcourse u r 100% clear.

But there is prblm.

When i ask her about these things then

she thought these questions

as nonsense.

And change the topic. And i also understand that this is

*nonsense*

For some people such questions are really awkward because they don't like to think that deeply about their relationships. They just want to live them day to day.

Could that also be true here? What would it mean to you if there was no easy way to find out her true feelings? @bestVase7265

Yes its true...

So is it makes no sense to know her feelings?

It makes tons of sense for you to want to understand her feelings better. But sometimes the person your asking can't answer the question because their brain operates differently than yours does.

What do you fear most in not having your questions about the relationship answered? There are always other angles that you can work from to help you feel better. Maybe understanding yourself better here would help. @Babac