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Rising just to fall again
UncharmedBear September 7th
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Hey all! First time ever putting any of this out anywhere, but I figure no one else bothers to listen to it so why not. I've been feeling pretty damn depressed for the last probably decade, if im being honest. Everytime I try to rise out of my own personal ***, i'm slapped back down into it in one way or another. The most recent of those being me moving to an entirely new state, to a city no one has probably ever heard of in the middle of nowhere. So now, on top of my general depression, I can add loneliness to the list. I'm just having a really hard time finding a reason to go on if this is what my life will be like. I honestly believe I was supposed to die years ago and the universe is trying to right the wrong in any way it can.

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PineTreeTree September 8th
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@UncharmedBear Hi Bear. Sorry you’ve found yourself in a lonely place. I can understand how that would be depressing. What have you tried to manage your depression? 


The universe is not out to get you.
UncharmedBear OP September 8th
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I've tried meditation, having a consistent sleep schedule, and exercising. It'll get better for a day or two, but then I fall back into the same feelings for a week.

PineTreeTree September 8th
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@UncharmedBear Depression can occur from the thoughts we have. Learning some skills through CBT can help. You can learn these skills in books.

UncharmedBear OP September 9th
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I'll try to find books on it and give it a shot, thank you.

indigoJet7590 September 8th
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I am not sure what sticks. I am in the same predicament. I have had recurring suicidal thoughts since I was a child. But we're both still here, so that's a start!

UncharmedBear OP September 9th
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I'm sorry you're going through it too, and I hope it gets better. Until it does though, at least you're not alone.

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