Not sad, but not happy

Stuck in the traffic

everything seems neutral

im exhausted I feel this exhaustion n struggles w eating again, not having anyone that would understand by my side.

It’s just me n I people

n stuff that I have to keep n protect n all of this

not sure when I felt truly happy or did really laugh

inmiss having genuine ppl or souls that would give me something for support or hand me a beautiful word

its especially hard cause I’m really tied day or night n my family can judge or be wayy too on me but this is not sometjing they would ever get

im having a lot n it burdens me w this exhaustion n no mood to eat as I don’t wanna go back to where I began to fight for better as I was so unwell it can still come back at me which I’m afraid of when being this lonely but fight is fight

I just hope to retain energy

if you’re in the same season

and sometimes you want to truly fly away n escape from all this experience

stay for your future self💜💙❤️‍🩹

something will always be worth rewriting our pain

I believe in you