I wish I could give my life to someone who wants to live
I wish I could give my life to someone who wants to live but can't. They would benefit more than I from having it. Meanwhile I could rest in peace, away from not having anywhere that I belong, away from being isolated, away from not ever being good enough regardless of how I think about myself, et cetera. I hate it here in this body.
@GumballMachine
I'm truly sorry you're feeling this way. It sounds like you're carrying a lot of pain and maybe feeling like you can't find your place in the world and you don't belong. That kind of isolation and feeling of never measuring up can be overwhelming and exhausting. I know how you feel and I was once in your place too. I see you. Please know that these thoughts don't define your worth, even if it’s hard to believe right now.
You deserve compassion, and there are people out there who would genuinely want to help you through this. I am one of them. You don’t have to face this alone. It’s okay to reach out and share this weight with someone who can listen and ease the burden you're carrying. You matter, even if it doesn't feel like it right now.
What brings you joy or eases how you feel, no matter how small it may be?
@MarinaLexi How did you find where you belong? Of course it doesn't define my worth, but I'd like to not feel like a piece of the puzzle that is outside of a puzzle that is already completed with one piece missing, but I don't fit properly in the space. I am a puzzle piece for an entirely different puzzle. Going somewhere else would help, but I am finishing my education first.
@GumballMachine
It's a tricky answer and it's not the same for everyone. I'm 22 and I've only just found my place in the world, sometimes it takes longer than you think, but there is hope. I found belonging through leaning towards my strengths and the activities I enjoy and the things I'm good at (7 Cups is fantastic for helping you explore that!).
What would be something in each of those boxes for you?
You are unique. There isn't anyone in the world like you and that's wonderful, because it means there is a space for you and it isn't taken by someone else. It's there. In some situations, you may have to make it, and in others, it may take time before you find the exact place. It's trial and error, and that can be really hard, but you're not alone in feeling that way.
@GumballMachine
I think there are several options:
If you think you are not a piece of a certain puzzle, do not try to fit there by force.
Let the puzzle which was looking for a piece like you to attract you, and take you in.
Or... what about creating a kind of your own set of puzzles?
@MarinaLexi It was a genuine question, not rhetorical.
@GumballMachine
Apologies, I was in the shower when the notification popped up, and I liked it accidentally. I didn't mean to confuse you.
@GumballMachine
Wishing about giving your life to someone else, who may need it badly, seems to be a really altruistic idea! But maybe you have something to do here? Maybe you are _needed_ here, no matter how modest about yourself and your qualities you have been?
I am sorry to hear you might be not on friendly terms with your body right now...
@jacek73 I am definitely NOT needed. The only way I am needed isn't inducive to my life being good- people NEED me to WORK, and to give them MONEY, and nothing else. They only talk to me when they need me (which they never do), and only talk "about" me otherwise. I am not "needed" in any other way. I am sick of this garbage life.
@GumballMachine
It sounds so frustrating to feel like you’re only appreciated for what you can give others or do for them.
Sometimes, being needed isn’t just about giving money or doing someone a favour - it can also be about the special way you think, feel, and see the world. There’s something about you that can add value and meaning, even if it doesn’t always feel that way.
I believe that your anger comes from your ideas how this world could be a better place. Too many people nowadays, I think, are satisfied with going the beaten path.
You’ve probably had experiences that most people wouldn’t understand, and that made you feel distant from others. But it really doesn't make you unlikable.
@GumballMachine me too. i feel just as you do. honestly, life is so unfair that the ones who want to live don't always get to do it and the ones who really don't want to have to keep going when they don't want to. i understand how unneeded you feel. i'm here with you in that. *hugs if okay* 🫂
i know i'm probably not helping, but maybe it helps to know you're not alone in feeling this way. i'm genuinely sorry you feel this way because i know how much it hurts. i get how fed up of this life you feel. but i think you might have something to look forward to? maybe finishing your education and moving to find a simpler life would help? maybe you can try to live for that and see if you feel better after all that happens? you've made it this far, you can do this, especially since you said you finish your degree soon, right?
sending lots of strength, warmth, and hugs if okay to get you through this. i genuinely hope things get better for you and that someday you feel better about yourself, feel needed and feel that you belong. please remember that i'm around if you'd like to talk, i don't think i'll be of much help but i can sit and just listen if you ever wanna talk. ❤️❤️