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How did you find your purpose in life?
Depression Support / by GumballMachine
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 Tuesday
...See more I am wondering how to find purpose in life. This is something I really struggle with, especially since I am so isolated. Life purpose is often grounded in a social setting, partly. How did you find your purpose? 
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I wish I could give my life to someone who wants to live
Depression Support / by GumballMachine
Last post
 December 14th
...See more I wish I could give my life to someone who wants to live but can't. They would benefit more than I from having it. Meanwhile I could rest in peace, away from not having anywhere that I belong, away from being isolated, away from not ever being good enough regardless of how I think about myself, et cetera. I hate it here in this body.
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I don't know what to do after my undergraduate degree
Student Support / by GumballMachine
Last post
 November 12th
...See more Finishing my undergraduate degree soon. As a first generation student, I will be the first in my family to graduate from university. I will be wallowing in debt, and partly due to this I will not continue my education. There is LOTS of employment that can be done with only experience and no university education anyways. I think I am actually of average intelligence and it is really isolating to go to university, so I am not sure why I would continue studying. I have a poor memory and nobody is interested in me enough to give me attention. Plus, most of the students are WAY younger than me so it's like attending an upper-high school rather than a university. It's really deluded, people thinking they need to get a degree after high school to enhance employment opportunities. It used to be different in the past, but now anyone can get a degree. University as it is in the modern day just isn't the same as it used to be. University used to mean a lot to me and was exciting, but unfortunately doesn't mean anything anymore or feel the same as it used to. All going to university is is taking in information and spitting it out until you get a piece of paper that doesn't necessarily get you employment or actually mean anything. Why would I want to do that? People who take the time to get PhDs who take in so much information for years and are lucky enough to work in a university just work to spew information on young adults who will never get a PhD and possibly not even get a career in the area of study. It sounds disgusting to me. I hope to start a new life soon where I find somewhere I belong and have a social support system. I wonder where I should go and what I should do. I hope to move abroad and start a new life. I hope it is fulfilling, instead of this meaningless garbage and isolating lifestyle where nothing meaningful or interesting actually happens. Why I even started studying, I have no idea. I am tired of capitalist society where everything is done to get money, where people live to work and work to live, and hope to join a society that is less focused on capitalist ideals. I feel that I am being forced to be a slave by society for most of my life, and I would be very blessed to be supported by someone(s) and not work. This modern day, extortionately expensive lifestyle where everyone supposedly needs to work full-time just to survive is delusional. I actually don't want to be forced to try hard just to "be someone" in society or to work. I feel trapped in what society wants me to do, because I don't care about any of it, and this perspective isn't a result of a mental health condition. I just don't belong in this society. What I might love to do instead of being a capitalist slave is pay off my interest-incurring student debt, become a monk, and spend my time doing something like harvesting rice or tea in the mountains or hills of Asia, instead of pretending to be like these people I exist around when really I will never be like them. If anyone would like to share their current lifestyle or experiences after university, I would love to know. I would love to know what people's experience was like as a first generation student as well- if you were one you should share. I would love to talk about university and after-university experiences, or really anything related to my post. How do you cope with capitalist society? Looking forward to discussing with you.
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Seeking Long-term Listener
General Support / by GumballMachine
Last post
 March 19th
...See more Hello, I am seeking a long term listener. I am tired of finding poor quality listeners on this website and having to explain my story every time I want to contact a listener. I would like a verified, long term listener who has likely been on this website for a long time (at least a few months). Maybe even a 7 Cups friend. General issue topics I need help with: general mental health, loneliness, getting unstuck, LGBT, work & career, student life. Let's get to know each other 🌟
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Today's Weather Haiku
Poetry / by GumballMachine
Last post
 February 26th
...See more Today's Weather degrees above null sun emerged from hiding days getting longer -------------------------
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Making Progress in my Life
Positivity & Gratitude / by GumballMachine
Last post
 December 7th, 2023
...See more I always wanted to achieve something in my life or do interesting, out of the box things. I wanted to actually do or be something, rather than following the status quo. To be respected, pursue what is interesting to me, and possibly be useful to society. I was never treated the greatest by others, being restricted from doing certain things. It seems that when you are young society is less likely to allow you to do certain things because of their perspectives on younger people. Most of my free time growing up was filled with nonsensical romantic endeavours, as well as platonic and familial relationships, and my education. I stopped "dating" after beginning university, however, and began to focus on pursuing what I wanted to do in life. I chose to do this also due to some trauma happening with my most recent serious romantic partner right before starting university. After moving to a bigger city and starting university, I started to fill my time with more and more things I wanted to do, in order to experiment with my life. It seems that being in university or a city has given me more freedom to do this than I had before. For the past year, I finally have been doing a lot more things I desire in my life. I have been volunteering in various roles. I assumed two separate roles within an official club at my university, one after the other. It is interesting being in a leadership role, even though the club is small. I will have completed a 7 Cups internship soon as well, which I am pursuing to help me decide if I want to take a particular career path. I am very grateful to say I will have a degree as well after next year, with not one but 2 majors and a certificate. What I have achieved are great and desirable accomplishments to me. I think it is easier to go nowhere in life or to follow what others think you should do rather than to actually pursue what you want. This is not because it takes effort, but because others may frown upon it based on their own limiting perspectives. I think it can be uplifting to do what you want in life and succeed, whereas not being allowed to can crush the soul and make one feel rather sad. Very grateful for my life in the past few years.  
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Seeking Mentor and Writing Prompts
Reading & Writing / by GumballMachine
Last post
 November 2nd, 2023
...See more Hello, I am seeking a website with interesting creative writing prompts. Not personal or cliche ones like, "where do you see yourself in five years?" I am also looking for someone to ask questions who has published a book before. If they are willing and if I need it, I may ask them to be my mentor. Thanks in advance.
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