Is this ADHD or am I just depressed?
Seriously, I’ve never been diagnosed by a professional with ADHD but I will say the search I’ve done on ADHD I’ve noticed quite the similarities. Same with depression. Can’t remember the last time I was truly happy. I have no motivation. It’s like I have moments where I’ll have really high ups where I’m super motivated and want to do something to better my life. But then I’ll immediately lose that motivation because I will attempt to start something new but it’s like my brain is incapable of catching up with me. Like, I lose my track of thought. My mind wonders. I become obsessive over things that I’m scared might happened. Like sorta manifesting bad things into my life. And I truly believe in manifesting your thoughts. I try to shift my thinking but, shortly after followed by horrible thoughts. I feel like I’m constantly arguing with myself. I’m constantly in my head. I don’t hangout with people often so I’m really alone a lot. It’s hard to make friends because aside from everything else. I find it hard to make friends now a days. (I’m 27, F btw) life just seems hard lately. However, it’s weird because I also really struggle with staying focused. Back to my undiagnosed adhd problem. I really want better for myself. Like truly. But the way that my brain works. It’s extremely hard to stay focused and motivated especially. I’ve never seeked help if I’m honest. Because I’ve always been scared to admit any of this stuff to myself and maybe others? It just feels like a constant state of out of body experiences going on in my life. It’s hard to keep up when I feel so far behind. Does anyone else feel like this or is just me
I’ve had similar experience. Millions of us have. I hope today is less painful for you.
From what I’ve learned and experienced, depression is a partial side affect of having ADHD. You live your whole life not knowing you have ADHD so you naturally adapt to doing things. During this time, compared to “normal” people, you discover that tasks seem hard to complete or concepts are hard to grasp because your mind is all over the place but you manage. Over time this adaptation wears you down and things seem overwhelming causing you to have anxiety. The anxiety if prolonged, leads to depression because your mind is always trying to understand why things seem so difficult to achieve. Eventually the depression gets deeper because you are always second guessing yourself and questioning your self worth.
I don’t know if this resonates with you, but seeking help for me has had some relatively good success. I’m not 100% in the clear but I am in a much better place than if I had not gotten help. I am on meds and people will say they’re not good for you but I had to look at both sides and determine what is the lesser of two evils- be on meds that may not be good for you, or leave things alone and spiral downwards to a point of no return? For my kids sake I chose to go on meds to prolong what sanity I have left.
I wish this gives you some hope knowing that there are ways out of what you are dealing with. All the best.