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Im tired

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Im *** exhausted man

tired of my mom emotionally abusing me
and my dad neglecting me
and being bullied by my family for being too skinny
and being bullied for my dad for eating too much and trying to gain weight
and binge eating constantly.
Im tired of being depressed
constant panic attacks
always anxious
messy room all the time despite me always being a neat freak
taking care of my mom who has had cancer for years, and never getting appreciation for it
getting SA'd by my cousin
being forced to see him every week
always being criticised
being ignored by my friends in training
of being lonely
and no one understands how i feel
and having artists block
needing to self harm all the time
pretending to be okay
always being there for others, no one being here for me

im tired man
ive said it before
but no matter how many times i say it, or complain, i dont feel better

i feel awful
i hate life

and not having energy



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Sebastian0o0 August 15th

@PastaIsVeryUnderrated im here for u💗 

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PastaIsVeryUnderrated OP August 15th

@Sebastian0o0 thank you sebby❤

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hi66666 August 15th

@PastaIsVeryUnderrated

I g if u need somone to talk to i be happy to try and help as much as i can and thank  you so much for always being their 

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PastaIsVeryUnderrated OP August 15th

@madoggy77 tyyy ma, will always be here for u when i can<3

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AmyGrace55555 August 22nd

@PastaIsVeryUnderrated Hugs 🫂 if wanted. I’m always here to talk and be here for you! Okay? You have been there for me, I think I should repay the favour.

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PastaIsVeryUnderrated OP August 22nd

@AmyGrace55555 hugsss amy, thank you so much, aint no favor to repay tho, me is always happy to be here for you <3<3

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AmyGrace55555 August 22nd

@PastaIsVeryUnderrated We’ll be there for each other. How about that? That way it’s even. ❤️🫂

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PastaIsVeryUnderrated OP August 22nd

@AmyGrace55555 yess absolutely🧡🧡

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reliablebunny23 August 22nd

@PastaIsVeryUnderrated

That's so much to go through, pasta.

I'm so sorry to hear that you've to go through all this..

I'm here for you always, whenever you need help,

you aren't alone, okay? 🥺❤️

You mean a lot to me! 💙

& You are so talented, I love seeing your paintings, 

You deserve lot of love and care. And I hope you will get people who will treat you well one day.. ❤️ 

Just don't blame yourself for whatever you're going through, it's not your fault, you do not deserve all this pain & problems,

You are strong and you will get through all of this!!❤️ 

Don't lose hope🫂

Remember, you're a champ. ❤️❤️


crimsonMelon5242 September 8th

@PastaIsVeryUnderrated

Dija, you are not alone. I can understand, its not easy for you to get out from this *** that you are living rn. like everyday is struggle and at some point we reach to a destination where it seems impossible to take the burden anymore and we fall on the ground. But the good news is that we don't give up. We get up and start the trail again. I hope you will be fine pasta/dija. Everything will be fine. We are with you!  Your life is a beautiful thing! 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6FFv2dMe_zo

Watch this video if you want, i think it maybe it could bring some hope of shine to your life. I know you are not victim of drug abuse or anything like that, but this video is so powerful, these words are strong. Like you dija, you are strong. Stay brave and fight with negativity. You cannot stay neutral, be Proton + and live your life, be Electron - and spend your life! 



WhiteAura9 September 17th

@PastaIsVeryUnderrated

I’m deeply sorry that you’re feeling this way. It sounds like you’re carrying an immense amount of pain and exhaustion from various sources in your life, and it’s completely understandable to feel overwhelmed. It’s evident from what you’ve shared that you’re dealing with a multitude of challenges, from emotional abuse and neglect to ongoing personal struggles and isolation.

Being in a situation where you’re experiencing emotional abuse from your mom, neglect from your dad, and bullying from your family must be incredibly difficult. It’s painful to feel misunderstood, criticized, and not appreciated, especially when you’re putting so much effort into caring for others. The added burden of feeling alone and unsupported, along with the trauma of your cousin’s actions, makes your current situation even more challenging.

The exhaustion you’re feeling is compounded by constant panic attacks, anxiety, and depression. It’s understandable that managing these feelings while trying to maintain your daily responsibilities and creative pursuits feels like an uphill battle. The frustration of dealing with artist’s block and the need to self-harm are additional layers of pain that make it even harder to cope.

It’s important to recognize that your feelings of exhaustion, loneliness, and frustration are valid. You’ve been through so much, and it’s okay to acknowledge the weight of these experiences. Feeling like you’re always there for others but not receiving the same support in return can be incredibly disheartening.

While it may seem like expressing these feelings doesn’t alleviate the pain, simply acknowledging and sharing them is an important step. It’s a way of honoring your experiences and validating the intensity of what you’re going through. It might also be helpful to identify even small ways to care for yourself amidst these challenges, whether it’s finding brief moments of respite, engaging in activities that bring you some comfort, or finding safe ways to express your emotions.

Remember, you’re not alone in feeling this way, even if it seems like no one truly understands your experience. Your feelings are important, and taking steps to acknowledge and process them is a crucial part of navigating through this difficult time. Please be gentle with yourself and recognize that seeking support, whether through friends, support groups, or other resources, can provide you with additional comfort and understanding.

WhiteAura9 September 17th

@PastaIsVeryUnderrated

I hear how deeply overwhelmed and exhausted you are, and it’s incredibly important to acknowledge that what you’re feeling is both real and significant. You’re carrying so many burdens—emotional abuse, neglect, bullying, and personal struggles—that it’s no wonder you’re feeling drained and hopeless.

It might help to start by finding safe and gentle ways to express and process your feelings. Whether it’s through writing, art, or talking with someone you trust, giving voice to your emotions can sometimes offer a bit of relief and clarity. This can be a way to acknowledge your pain and begin to understand it better.

Building some boundaries with the people or situations that are contributing to your stress could also provide some relief. It’s okay to distance yourself from harmful dynamics when you can, even if it’s just in small ways. Protecting your emotional space is important.

Developing coping strategies that work for you can also be beneficial. This might include practicing mindfulness, deep breathing exercises, or other techniques that help you manage anxiety and panic. These tools can be a way to find moments of calm amidst the chaos.

Reaching out to others who can understand and support you can also make a difference. Finding support groups or online communities where people share similar experiences might help you feel less alone and more understood.

Taking time for yourself, even in small ways, is crucial. Engaging in activities that you enjoy or that help you feel nurtured can be a way to counterbalance the stress and exhaustion you’re experiencing.

It’s also worth reflecting on moments when you’ve found even a small sense of comfort or accomplishment. Sometimes, acknowledging these positive moments, no matter how minor they may seem, can help shift your perspective and provide a bit of encouragement.

You’re dealing with so much, and it’s okay to seek and take support in ways that feel right for you. Your feelings and experiences are valid, and taking care of yourself is important, even if it feels challenging right now. Please be gentle with yourself as you navigate through this difficult time.