Hellooo ✨

I’m Bunny, a girl from India 🇮🇳.

I'm a teenager; 16 years old. 

Bunny isn't my real name, but it’s what everyone calls me. 

I'm a sensitive person, deeply affected by the words of those close to me. I cry a lot, almost every day, and words have a profound impact on me. I hate when people talk loudly or shout.

Overthinking is a constant in my life; I overthink everything. I struggle with self-doubt and often second-guess myself.

I'm tired of my reality; my comfort zone is my imaginary world.

Music + imaginary world = my escape 🤝🏻✨🖤.

But my overthinking and constant worries of reality kick in, & when I remember that my imaginary world isn't real and will never become reality —I find myself sinking back into sadness. 

I tend to worry over minor details, which leaves me feeling down.

I'm a very confused person, usually unable to understand my own feelings, and I struggle to express them.

Plus, opening up to others (includes both people in real life & people here) is challenging for me, and I often keep my feelings to myself. 

I've lost interest in the things I used to enjoy, and I think I currently have no hobbies or anything that I like to do.

I have a weird overwhelming feeling 24/7. I don’t know how to explain it, but it feels like an increased or very noticeable heartbeat, an uncomfortable sensation in my chest, a slight headache or a feeling of a heavy head, likely due to stress from constant thoughts. It feels like my brain is constantly active and ruminating, causing my head to feel heavy. This feeling makes me uncomfortable, both mentally and physically. 

I can't figure out what this feeling is; it might be anxiety but I'm not sure. It overwhelms me, leaving me with a constant sense of discomfort and a lack of happines & feeling of ease. 

I really want to figure out what this feeling is and whether it's anxiety or something else. 

Though I haven't been professionally diagnosed, I think I have anxiety, depression, and executive dysfunction. But seeking professional help isn't an option for me.

Maybe I have ADHD too, but I'm not entirely sure. I don’t recall having symptoms as a child, and, as far as I know, ADHD is usually present from birth, isn't it? 

I've also dealt with social anxiety, which I've managed to reduce quite a bit. However, I still have a deep fear of judgment—more so online than in real life. It might sound weird, but that's how it is, and there's a whole story behind it.

I've been through traumas and some really tough experiences, and now I feel I've reached a point in life where no one can help me, and I’m losing all hope.

Life just seems to keep moving forward, and I can’t escape the sense that this is how things will always be.

Although, I still wish to heal. ❤️‍🩹