If I could make your pain understandable to others...🍊🧡
If I could make your pain understandable to others...
 What pain did you want to tell me about?
@Enolakh the feeling of loving someone who doesn't exist and not being sure if you're insane or if it's even love while also being interested in someone real you can't have because they said no
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The random bursts of anger. The way I hurt or push away the people close to me
Feeling depressed and anxious to the point where I want to k*ll myself. Sorry if this triggered anyone. :’(
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My emotional pain. A lot of people doesn't understand it much just because it is inside and can't be seen like the physical pain. But emotional pain triggers depression and anxiety. I wish more people would in my life would take it seriously.Â
@Enolakh.   I would I’m dealing with that it hurts it’s really badÂ
Maybe I should put a TW just in case…
don’t know who I am, I don’t know what I’m thinking or how I’m feeling, I don’t know what I want, I don’t know how to change how I am currently, I don’t know anything, I don’t wanna do anything. I’m just wasting my life and time doing the most useless things. I cannot and don’t want to talk to people but sometimes my brain also urges me to do so. I sometimes do things is shouldn’t knowing that I shouldn’t. Being alive is tiring and hard but I’m a coward and I still want to be alive. Sorry this is kinda long. ):
@OhHelloThereImHere Actually I'm happy that you wrote a long answer because I can understand better.Â
Not knowing who you are , what you want or like ,etc can be really really frustrating. you said you think you are wasting your life . how does this thought make you feel ?Â
I understand that sometimes we don't want to do something but we feel the need to do so .
and I see that you are tired of living and if i were in your shoes i would feel the same since you are having some hard experiences ♡
@Enolakh
The overwhelming fear that I am some kind of monster or a pile of wasted talent. It consumes me sometimes and I just feel like people don't understand how far it goes. The way they look at me, it hurts a lot more than they think. It gets scary sometimes.Â
@Enolakh I wish people could understand how hard it is to have to hide who I am for the sake of others. Because I’m scared how others will take it and I’m scared of how they will see me after. I always have to tiptoe around to not accidentally say something that would out me as trans. I also wish people could understand what it’s like to hate my body and my mind and myself in general and no matter what I do it always comes back I can only find temporary solutions. I wish people could understand without me having to say it.
rely Struggling to find balance. Eat intuitively, live a holistic life after years of medication. Struggling with a feeling of an undertow of depression that will never leave me. My low self esteem doesn’t work and I struggle with an ED. Due to my depression it’s really hard to exercise however with my ED I restrict myself because I’m so fearful of gaining weight. I want to love myself I just don’t know how.
@Enolakh
Can I say just all of them? But I would want that they would understand how it feel to be so tired but you can't sleep when you are overthinking your live and you thought every mistake what you have ever made and hat you may make. I want to that they understand what is it like when you are so close to falling asleep but you can't when somebody doesn't allow you to, maybe it is yourself or somebody else but you can't fall asleep because of it.
