Increase in Depression During the holidays

The holydays are a like a trigger for depression in my case.

I try to decorate my room, read, or do stuff I planed to do before, cook for example. Music is always present.

Yes depression gets worse in holidays cause it seems everyone is happy and you not. Our journey to healing is such a challenging one. A friend said to me take it step by day. Its hard especially when you had improvement and you just got through a difficult time and see abit of sun shine cause its better week and then just a glimpse of memory or an item or a text brings back that pain that hurt and you have that dark storm cloud in front of you

your days are filled with memories of hurt biting nails and being so anxious, will it ever stop you ask yourself. I want to be happy i deserve that but it seems like everyone else is but me. Im not victim i tell myself but how can like a victor when i think of this pain inside and no one can understand what i feel like the world is saying get over it live by mantras and bondaries and then you will be okay. today im not okay but im having a better day then yesterday.

I can only say together we will get through this we will have some bad days and some good days but we will get through this thank you

I love the spirit of hollidays but my family is just the opposite of what it should be. They judge a lot, don't listen and critizised the others while I feel worse every moment... I just spent the time bored, alone and quiet until everything is over and I have to start again trying to be positive and motivated... it's like a vacation on hell.

Mine does since i dont get to see my dad along with a whole side of my family...

While I seem to have some regular patterns to my mood & state of mind, it's not really holiday-related, but rather seasonal I think. My most intense depressive lows have all occurred in around September or October, during Spring-time, although there's usually a few years between the worst ones, I still feel a bit lower at that time every year. It got to the point I was Googling the possibility of having reverse Seasonal Affective Disorder, which I wasn't even sure was a condition before I became aware of this seasonal pattern.

I'm not looking forward to Christmas as I lost my Grandad last year.

Seeing all the decorations being put up takes me right back to him being in hospital and I just end up crying.

I miss him so much. I'm hoping that I can be strong for my family on the day.

My depression and my anxiety get so much worse during the holidays. I love my family but big around so many people at once and it scares the hell out of me and I have more panic attacks at that time, than do I do any other time.

Thanksgiving is tough for me because my parents and siblings plus some other family members all get together and I am the only one not there. I am with my husband and sons which is nice, but my family is close and had strong traditions and I miss being with them.

Yes mostly during Thanksgiving and Christmas. Occasionally Valentine's Day.

YES...........