hey guys

@Anyakn0625 :) <3 

"Stuck in a loop of heartache and missing, I'm tried of being the one who does all the wishing. Yet through the pain I'll find my way, with the hope of meeting again to light my days."

Hi I’m quite new to this app so may I ask how to post questions or other things like ur doing here? I only know how to reply

To you who finds this truly broken glass , 🍷

I hope you fix and fill me, ⚒️

I'll overflow in adoration to , 🌊

Whoever finds and reminds me , 🗺️

Embrace is for them who confide with me , 🫂

Love is the true antidote, 💊

Oh you my future half , half 💙

To you my heart and soul are betrothed , 💍

Super random ? Yeah ik hahaha

_Fern 🌿

@Anyakn0625

A poem I wrote:

I’m sorry

For all the hurt I’ve caused and


The Life I’ve robbed and

The tumbling tumbling


Tumbling

Road you’ve taken

But I’m not sorry

For how you treated me and

How you didn’t see Despite

Your wrongs wrongs

Wrongs

I remain unshaken

I empathized and understood

What it’s like to be misunderstood

But you kept me in your silver claws

Always aware of all my flaws

I’m tired, so tired

It’s unbelievably cruel

Why do we have to

Fight this nonsense duel?

And still I triumph

But I’m still a Mistake

Nothing I do will change your ways

I wish, just wish

You finally find peace

So the weight of your

Burdens are all released

So I went off

Down that Tumbling Road

And I made it into my Humble Abode

@Anyakn0625 hmmm...If I wanted to say something I would tell my ex of 8 years whom I haven't spoken to since 2019, I would ask him Did you ever love me or were you just in it to cause me great pain and distress?

@Anyakn0625 I want to tell myself that the 5th cyborg leader of earth in 2064 will be vulnerable on July 5th when its stooping to pick up that can of grape soda, that's when you take the shot. :) (Of course I joke, or do I...?)

@Anyakn0625 I feel like I am doing too much for her, but she isn't doing it as well, how can I try to feel better? I think the best for me is to move on, but I would love to hear your thoughts.

----THIS poem is about a loved one's mental illness and my own experience with ptsd that i feel gave me a window into their world. this is the shadow of the poem words will not write. its texture, images, smells... tactile mirages of a giddy nightmare.. it is written with a reverent heart, a non-judgmental sentiment.:

fears ripened like fruit 

scent lofting from just behind the door

in the stale shadow of the longing down

i pried into the darkness of that repressive visage tore

sought for all i'd find in the reeling vanish of your love

i was struck with painful lust for the demons you'd endured

never thought such comfort could be from nagging haunts of mind

its your secret escape my lips could never reveal

you will not be discovered secret friend, they cannot comprehend 

loving your own perishing in the sanctity of your prison's seal

the freedom of the loss of sanity when you are finally giving in

lived in a small room made of teeth and feathers of the darkest birds

dissolved into choking fumes that permeated from the vibration of love's shaky words

i know the heaven that is kept in the hidden keep of ***

i know the chances of ever returning back from the poison once the tissue begins to swell

memories of the day i shared your little existence now faded

i can hear the screech of our tormentors with such crystal recall

and though i might have tried to save you 

two feet from you, in such darkness, i could never have found you there at all

... I forgive you for everything you did to me on Monday and hate you again on Tuesday . But I pray for you always. ...

I want to ask the person I consider my closest friend how close they feel I am to them and how much they value me as their friend and tell them how much I care about them and how much they mean to me.

I almost did one time but they were having a bad day so I didn't and have never gotten that close to asking again.