Mental Breakdowns are Fun right
Okay so, basically, I used to be really really unconcerned with school and classes therein, and I got my transcript today. I moved to another state and they have way different requirements than my old homeschool program did, like I was supposed to graduate this year, but instead here I'm a junior. Again. But back to the topic My transcript reads:
GPA: 1.4042
Class rank: 233 of 233
233.
out. of.
2 3 3.
I recently decided I wanted to go to college, I was already in a bad mood earlier from some Family Fightng that went on last night and now I'm sitting in english clas trying not to start bawling and crying.I'm so afraid I'm going to end up useless just like my POS step father I loathe with all my heart. I'm probably gonna end up skipping lunch to go just, sob in the bathroom. I was almost back to normal earlier too, until that stupid peice of paper ruined my day. Why couldn't I just have sucked it up and studied in eighth grade? I'm so mad with myself I could scream at a mirror. I just, I Don't know.
@ExpressoDepressoBookHorse
heyyyyy, first welcome to the Bipolar support community. You have done the right thing in sharing your feelings here where it is safe, I would send you a hug and let you cry on my shoulder, then we can chat about working out a plan that will make sure you start to feel better. Feel free to message me and we can chat. We do have a rule here though - no Cupsing in class! - but sometimes a small chat to a listener can help you feel better so you can then start to study better. 
Listening .... One Step At A Time