Bipolar
Feeling kind of lost. For Context, I have BPD, ADHD and PTSD. Today I went to see my psychiatrist and she was going to give me some meds for ADHD so I could perhaps get better academically.
I told her for curiosity that I've been euphoric again but what I found weird was that it was just euphoria. I felt really energized, felt confident and felt like the best in the world for long periods of time, after depressive times, and that state would last months or even years until it would all crash again.
This obviously isn't euphoria, it's mania and I am aware of that, so that's why I also shared with her.
And she told me that if I experience this for many years, it's no doubt that I also have bipolar and that she can't give me ADHD meds, not when I'm experiencing mania at the moment.
And I was like... sure, I mean, I know what I experience because I try to keep up and be conscious about everything that concerns me and therapy helped a lot when I was younger. But I told her I would never accept any kind of meds for bipolar if this was the first time I talked to her about it.
So it's kind of wild. I've been thinking a lot about this lately since I do know it's all signs of bipolar, specially because euphoria doesn't last months or years.
But it's just.... a lot?