Depression & Special Interests
I think depression is ruining my enjoyment of my special interest.
It is really sad... I have no joy or enthusiasm recently, no motivation. Usually, that would only extend to other parts of my life & I'd still be able to engage with my special interest, because it's what I enjoy most and obsessed with & gave me respite from my mental health.
However the last few months, I've not been able to feel joy or happiness from anything, not even my special interest ≽^╥⩊╥^≼
& it makes me feel like I don't even like it anymore, which is an absolutely devastating feeling. I know I do still like it, I just feel so empty.
I have no motivation or energy to engage with it, so all day I do nothing. I haven't been able to do any of my usual activities related to my special interest and it makes me SO sad. I cry a lot. I almost feels like I'm grieving it. It makes my depression feel worse. I don't want to get up ever and nothing feels worth the effort.
Life sucks at the moment, I feel like I have nothing left anymore 😭
@SleepyShyCat Hey you ❤️ I can't tell you how relatable your post here is. I'm sorry you're struggling with this too. Depression does steal the joy out of everything and leaves you feeling absolutely bleh 😞
@mytwistedsoul
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I'm not sure there is anything different I can do, nothing feels ok and there is no motivation. There's not anything I want to try, I just feel like staying in bed all the time.
Doing nothing solves nothing, but idk. Depression makes me not care. But I still feel sad about the loss of everything. :(
@SleepyShyCat *offer's safe hugs* I'm really sorry you're feeling this way Shy 😞 I know the feeling of don't care is hard too. I know sometimes people suggest forcing yourself to do something but that's hard too
If you take an antidepressant maybe the dosage needs to be changed? I wish I had something better to offer. I know from my own experience that it's really hard feeling this way. In a way you are grieving because it's something that makes you feel like you 😞 And having people tell you that it will pass eventually doesn't help any either
@mytwistedsoul
I'm sorry you've felt this way too :(
I'm forcing myself to go to therapy, but that's about it right now. I feel SO empty and detached from everything. I wish I felt able to engage with the activities I liked :(
It's ok not to know what to suggest, I don't really think there is much to say. It doesn't feel like much of a way out to me.
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