Depression & Special Interests
I think depression is ruining my enjoyment of my special interest.
It is really sad... I have no joy or enthusiasm recently, no motivation. Usually, that would only extend to other parts of my life & I'd still be able to engage with my special interest, because it's what I enjoy most and obsessed with & gave me respite from my mental health.
However the last few months, I've not been able to feel joy or happiness from anything, not even my special interest ≽^╥⩊╥^≼
& it makes me feel like I don't even like it anymore, which is an absolutely devastating feeling. I know I do still like it, I just feel so empty.
I have no motivation or energy to engage with it, so all day I do nothing. I haven't been able to do any of my usual activities related to my special interest and it makes me SO sad. I cry a lot. I almost feels like I'm grieving it. It makes my depression feel worse. I don't want to get up ever and nothing feels worth the effort.
Life sucks at the moment, I feel like I have nothing left anymore 😭