I figured it out myself recently when I got my diagnosis, but my mother has never told me,she just kept telling me that I need therapy, even though she knows I have autism. She's just trying to convince herself that I don't, I just wonder why she feels so ashamed of me having autism She's always ashamed of my poor social skills and once even slapped me in the face in front of my everyone because of it), but it's not my fault to be autistic..
Recently, I've been trying to accept myself as I am and learn more about autism regardless of what she thinks