lonely
I am so fed up with myself and so lonely. Everytime i try to do something or go see a friend or family i get this overwhelming feeling of dread. I wish i could just shake it off but i cant. Sometimes i feel like im doing it to myself, then i have the realisation that yes you are doing it to yourself but not concsiously! This doesnt make me feel any better, how can you fight your own mind when you dont know why or how you have become this way. Very annoying and im getting tired of fighting it.
hi pinkpalpark,
i get the some similar feelings. i'll be sitting there fine, then seemingly out of nowhere, despair will come up, along with fear that someone will notice the change. i've found that some mindfulness exercises come in handy, and also sort of considering the idea that it's since these feelings are coming from inside me, they are kind of natural? weird, i know, but once i stop rejecting the feelings, i feel better about feeling bad. does that make sense?
