Honey, I used to be like that A LOT. Idk how old you are, but back in high school and my early 20's, I was always worried about what other people thought. Even when I'd go to parties/bars and get wasted, I'd act even stupider just for attention! I could never hold a stable relationship b/c I loved the attention from guys .. I had a hard time concentrating/paying attention in college unless it was really interesting b/c I was more worried about going out and partying! So stupid .. Unfortunately I screwed up college. But, if you keep thinking negative things about yourself and worried about others opinions, it isn't going to help you. You will just continue in a circle. Do those ppl pay your bills? Do those ppl buy your food? Do they pay your insurance? No .. so screw them! What I really always liked was cars, but I was embarrassed to go to school for auto technician b/c I am a girl. Guys think women cannot fix cars. Well, I got over that. I fix cars for a living and love it! So, don't worry about those people. You are a wonderful person and have a lot to offer this world. F**k the haters ;)