What do i show?
Greenapple1
November 20th, 2018
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Iv had very bad thoughts. Iv had these shameful (atleast to me) for a straight 7 monthes. I always correct myself and try to put it off. But they keep coming back. For this reason iv fallen into deep depression. I talk with some family members about it but they say i dont mean it. They say my actions show that i don't mean it. But what if i do? I dont want to mean these things! What if im a liar? Or im lieing to myself? What if im a bad person on the inside? What if im actually an evil person? I dont want to be none of these things. My feelings are so confused. I dont know who i am anymore.
These thoughts have been going on for so long. I dont know how to think or live anymore.
Im a kid. Why do i have to go through such things?