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Greenapple1
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PathStep 13 Compassion hearts10 Forum posts15 Age GroupAdult Last activeJune, 2019 Member sinceNovember 20, 2018
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Depression Support / by Greenapple1
Last post
 December 10th, 2018
...See more Lifes not going well. Earlier thus year is was perfectly happy. Made one mistake that lead to disaster. Now its almost new years. Iv waisted a whole year to my stupid depression. I hate myself. I told myself that i will never be depressed again.. But it happened again. And i haven't really accepted it fully. I forget things easily. I don't want to kill myself. But life is hard. I devastated that now i think about dieing. I never thought id want to die. Cause im so young and smart. But i hate myself. I had strength a few months back. But im lost. I cant see out of this. I think im giving up. Geez. Im supposed to be strong. Why now? Please dont tell me things get better. To save you some time... Iv lost all hope,strength,believe in anything.
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Anxiety Support / by Greenapple1
Last post
 November 21st, 2018
...See more Iv had very bad thoughts. Iv had these shameful (atleast to me) for a straight 7 monthes. I always correct myself and try to put it off. But they keep coming back. For this reason iv fallen into deep depression. I talk with some family members about it but they say i dont mean it. They say my actions show that i don't mean it. But what if i do? I dont want to mean these things! What if im a liar? Or im lieing to myself? What if im a bad person on the inside? What if im actually an evil person? I dont want to be none of these things. My feelings are so confused. I dont know who i am anymore. These thoughts have been going on for so long. I dont know how to think or live anymore. Im a kid. Why do i have to go through such things?
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