Scared, worried, social anxiety
Okay hey, so I'm having an anxiety attack right now and it sucks as usual. I'm sure if I focused on something else it would go away, but I can't just keep avoiding my problems, can I?
I'll try to keep it brief.
Just thinking about applying to jobs is starting to make me angry/anxious. This is something I thought I'd gotten over, but basically...I threw myself so hard into finding a job, (and obviously getting reject over and over again), that I feel like I'm just mentally broken in regards to jobs. I don't want a job but I know I need one. I don't know what to do about it, or how anyone even expects me to know what to do.
I have one friend (yes, just one), who's moving in 4 days. She's a mostly online friend, but we've met several times and I think we're both very important to each other.
I need to make new friends so I hopefully won't end myself. I'm afraid of going out and being in situations where no one wants me there, or where I'll just generally make an idiot of myself.
If anyone is reading this and is willing to talk to me, I would really appreciate it. Or you can just reply here, either way. I just want someone to talk to.