Place to vent!
Though I would start this.
I get so freaking stressed out over everything and yet thats normal for me. Just like having others to talk to who get the craziness of anxiety. And even guilt and shame and even sometimes self loathing that comes with. Yup it can even damage my self-esteem. Well there you go. No filter
Anybody else have anything they wanna get off their chest? Or feel in a similar way?
I feel genuinely hopless and I'm afraid. I just want a reset button.
@Exist56 What makes you feel that way? I totally understand wanting a reset button. Sometimes it gets really hard, but I try to take it moment by moment and remember that everything passes eventually. Things will get better. It's hard to believe, but it is so true!
@dogsandcats100 Time is the problem, you can't go back and it's only moving forward. Hope isn't going to pay bills, secure work, erase debts, and past mistakes.
I want to go scream at some "professionals" who shouldn't be in busniess if they aren't willing to make some phone calls for their clients to sort out a mess that they caused. Thing is generalized anxiety makes such rage situations risky to my energy level for sometimes days at a time and even if rage produces a desired result it won't feel great because I know it's just one of the many things that shouldn't have happened in the first place if people knew what the hell they were doing!
There's so much going on in my life right now, and I'm making it worse. I keep doing this thing where I'm so stressed about stuff that I overbook myself to stay busy so I don't have to think about what I'm stressed about, but then I'm so exhausted and overworked that it makes me even more stressed and my emotions even more intense. Then I just lose it, which is kind of what happened yesterday and today. I'm really trying to find time to process my emotions instead of just bottling them up because I know I should take care of myself, but I also don't want to. I don't think I deserve to be taken care of. I don't know why that is.
I let my guard down, i allowed myself to be happy for just a second and think that things are okay. I felt a glimpse of myself and it was so great thinking i could be me again. And in a second it all came crashing down on me. The all too familiar anxiety and depression and gut wrenching pain is back.
@Jaybee3690
I know what you mean, I feel that glimpse of happiness but it never least. Then I feel so stupid for letting my guard down and trying to be something different. Sometimes I feel like i was born to a stress and have anxiety. No matter how hard I try all it takes is one thought, one bill, one thing to not go right and my anxiety comes running back like a bull. The happiness is always short lived. There has to be another way of life than this anxiety and depression. I need to find it.
You can download a app called Vent there such thing I love it
@limeLion1506 Wow, I never knew that existed; I will try it out. Thanks for sharing!
@lovelyWhisper66 or talk life
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I know I only had one date with this guy, but how can it be so comfort and sweet with him before the date. I loved just chatting with him day after day, he didn't tell me he had a billion things to do, he just chatted. I feel like that part wasnt honest, but Im just playing it off as forgetful. I'm probably being a sucker for that.
Anyway after our really nice date he was 4 hours late for. He was sweet on our date.
However it was like a day later, he stops talking to me like we were. He had me waiting online for hours waiting for his reply. Then he tells me he was coming down with something on Thursday. All day friday I'm again waiting on a reply and I find out today he was out with his friends.
He swears he "loves" me yes. . . he has used the "L" word however he treats me like that. . . its rude, inconsiderate and just mean.
@Rebekahwriter13
Wow. What was his excuse for being 4 hours late? My suggestion is if your out waiting for him. Leave at a specific time. Say 1/2 hour or hour after planned time to meet if he doesnt show up. And messege him asking if hes on the way/forgot. That doesnt work. Just let him know u left.
If at home,then just go about your business and still ask for a reason why he was late? When/if he shows. Your time is also valuable.
Maybe setup a schedule for online chat? And to first check if he will be online before getting online,or for him to let you know he wont be online, but out and so on.
Feel free to ignore. Just my opinion.
@pointseven
I appreciate the suggestion, but he just told me I want too much, so I'm focusing on me.
@Rebekahwriter13
Hmm.
I dont know you or him well. So cant say.
From my own experience, maybe it has to do with being laid back/think surfer dude vs anxious/corporate executive
That it seems to be too much for him?
Or maybe to do with boundries?
Check out youtube video channel called Kati Mortan.
She is a licenced therapist. Maybe you'll find an answer in her videos.
Best of luck!
there's an app called smilie, if anyone wants to practice mindfulness
I"m sorry you feel this way. You can message me if you want to vent or talk more about it. I have anxiety as well so I know what it's like to feel like that.
