One thing my anxiety has taught me is.....
not to be too outgoing :/
how to be calm in certain scenarios
That people do love me even though I may think that they hate me . That I may be different but I'm not weird . That people might not understand but this doesn't mean that I'm alone.
That you need to be strong for yourself. No one is going to know when you have anxiety unless you tell them and even if you do, they are not inside your mind. You need to keep going forward and be strong. At least trying...
Anxiety has taught me that it really is mind over matter when it comes to meeting goals and finishing tasks. I have successfully been able to stop worrying about outcomes and focus on the little tasks at hand. Even if my mind wanders a thousand times I can always start again and keep going until the work is done. Running 20 miles is impressive and so is running 1 mile 20 times. ☺
I've learned it passes, and that I can take back my life. Even in darkness.
*That just because it has me thinking that no one cares doesnt mean that its true.
*That just because it has me thinking that everyone thinks Im a burden/annoying/irritating/a bother/unpleasant to be around doesnt mean that its true.
*That it doesnt matter how many good things you do, your mistakes are never forgotten and/or forgiven.
Avoid talking too much about it because not all people can understand , or willing to understand. Open up to trustworthy or legit people
That happiness is simply being grateful for the little things. JUST. BE. HAPPY. CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY. DECIDE TO BE HAPPY.
I think my anxiety was a learned behavior from as a kid I would worry that my alcoholic father would wreak his truck as he would drive drunk and drive in the ditch as well, one night he came home with a bloody bullet grazed sore on his head, sometimes he would beat my mother, he would sometimes come home at night so drunk that he wouldn't make it to the porch but passed out on the lawn. I worried about him like I was an adult and he was the kid. I'm learning to trust in God and not worry these days. My dad has since passed away. I don't hate or fear him anymore, I been in the Alanon program, I like it. I understand that he had a sickness and I pity him now. People have so much pressure on them and if they don't know God where do they go for help.I'm glad that with Gods help I am breaking the cycle with my family. I think my Momma would've been proud of us.
