I don't like myself
I haven't had this much disklike myself for a while. I think it started again, because of the people I'm around. I know a lot of people, but I don't feel like anybody is my friend. Like I am always the 2nd choice for everybody. Lots of my "friends" will joke around saying I'm mean and other hurtful things. I have struggled with my anger issues for years, it's just now that I can keep my temper. But with all of this talk about me being a fattie, and b**ch. It is affecting me, that when I look in a mirror I don't like what I see. I also struggle with daydreaming, now more than ever. I just play one song or read a new book, and I'll just daydream for hours. It's very hard to stop. I don't know what to do.
Thank you for your time, have a great day!
@ElyseMyers12368
Good news--------you have the ability to change yourself ... but not others....
if you really do not like yourself .......change things you do not like.
Daydreams and procrastinating does not help even if temporary relief thinking what if .... When you are present not in the daydream mode you realize you are still on step one... of making real change. When we look back at time we could have used productively it often increases anger at self or items we wish would change. a nasty cycle that repeats itself.
@ElyseMyers12368 I appreciate you sharing your feelings. It's completely natural to feel hurt when people around you are unkind. Remember that you are not alone in this, and it's okay to seek understanding and support from someone you trust. Your emotions are important, and talking to a supportive person, like a friend, listener, support group, or even a professional, can provide you with a safe space to express yourself and work through these challenges at your own pace.
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Good luck on your journey. Take care and be kind to yourself and others. 💚
You are a wonderful and precious human who is unconditionally loved and supported by the universe.
Nobody can ever make you feel bad about yourself no matter what they say. It is always YOU who chooses how to want to feel. Nobody forces you to feel bad about yourself. You decide that other people have value in what they say or do.
Change your thoughts and you will change the direction of your life. Make it a point to always be aware of how you feel and when how you feel is not how to want to feel then change the direction of your attention or focus. Tell yourself that you are the SOURCE of everything you create. You are the creator of everything you experience.
It's time to get toxic people out of your life!
@ElyseMyers12368 hugggs you ❤ you are beautiful and a strong lovely person, don't let anyone tell you Otherwise. Toxic friends like theese are not worth your time. Huggs you again ❤
Do try meditation it is very very helpful and also use of formations means are opposite of your thoughts like if you are feeling you are not worthy say to yourself that you are were the repeatedly this will reprogram your mind do try it will be very helpful for you and also considered therapy
@ElyseMyers12368
im sorry to hear about what you are going through .
im gonna try my best to help you out .
i will start by explaining the power of self love through a story :
there was once a girl who used to wake up everyday and stand in front of her mirror . she used to look at herself and smile . she would hug herself tight and give herself a kiss . she used to talk to the girl in the mirror . she would say , " im pretty ." she did this everyday .
one day a mean boy comes by and calls her ugly . she looked at the boy and gave him a warm smile . she replied , " im pretty " , and walked away with grace .
this little story is of my roommate . i leant self love from this incident .
all i wanna say is , we must know WHO and WHAT we are . and we must remind that to ourselves every single day . that way no one can ever take our confidence and peace away . i know it is a difficult journey , but take the baby steps and you will surely make it .
the change begins when you change the way you speak to yourself . positive self talk is the key ♡
I see you don't feel appreciated by your friends, and the negative thinking keeps on bothering you.
It's a good way to vent by typing it out and posting. Amazing, you know how to control your temper.
You mentioned that your "friends" kept teasing and kept triggering you. What are some ways you have thought to stop your friends from teasing you or how to stop being affected by it? You can do it because I see a lot of potential in you. If your friendships are really unhealthy, what can you change?
Wishing you all the best
@ElyseMyers12368
Hey, I totally feel you. I feel like that a lot of times too. Like I'm the non important side character who is never the priority. And yeah of course books are my best friend lol. But you know what I realised is that it shouldn't matter to me that how much of a priority I am to someone else if I'm not even making myself my priority. So I'm working on it. I know it's hard and totally not easy. But I'm trying. And you should too. And I'm here if you ever just need to talk. *Sending you a tight hug and a lot of love* ❤️🍀
@ElyseMyers12368
Thank you for sharing your story, I know how it can be difficult. I'm sorry you're being treated that way, you don't deserve to be disrespected and belittled like that, especially by people who are supposed to be your friends!