I am falling apart and completely alone
I just need to take this out of my heart and head and honestly I feel like this 24/7 but I can't. I know I had made mistakes, and still am, I didn't hurt anyone but me. I've failed several times, several times I didn't even try and I just can't forgive myself for that. I feel like I've wasted my life and time will never go back. I know I shouldn't get stuck with the past but I can't move on. My anxiety and depression got to a point that I feel physical pain and I'm losing too much weight and I've been withdrawing from people since I feel ashamed of myself and I guess no one can really support me. That's it. I'm trying to work on it but it's just SO HARD. I'm so tired.
@anxiousbuddhist
Good to see you admitting to your struggles, and that you are working on it. It sounds like there is a lot going on and it is extremely challenging. How have you been doing since writing this post?
@sweetBubbles5405 hey there, thanks for checking in, I'm doing better, on wednesday I took a day off to rest then move on with my life again, I'm still struggling with eating properly and social anxiety but I'm improving in coping since; just trying to make it through the day, and think about the positive things that happened each day and how can I survive the negative.
@sweetBubbles5405 That’s a short and sweet post with a lot of heart in it Bubbles. Well done to you!
Just by being here and seeking ANY type of help or guidance shows that you truly want to do and get better. I know how it feels when you’ve made mistake after mistake, but sometimes we have to understand whats happened and forgive ourselves. Its never easy and I myself am still forgiving myself for things of the past.
@pioneeringAcai9492 hey, thank you for your comment, it's really hard to forgive yourselves and forget the past, even when we move on with our lives, but I believe getting deep in analysing our actions with care is better for the long term. I hope you get better too :)
@pioneeringAcai9492 lovely empathic response - well done!
@anxiousbuddhist I’m really sorry to hear this anxious. Please hang in there. I can really hear you feel you have it tried hard enough and that you blame yourself. You have all these expectations of yourself you feel you have not fulfilled. We can feel at times I should have tried harder. You are so welcome to explore your thoughts further with an amazing listeners or therapists on our site. Thank you for being open and I hope you feel more better about yourself with time. Everyone deserves to feel good about themselves 😊
Hi @anxiousbuddhist . I am so sorry to hear about your struggles and feelings. There are a lot of people with similar or even the same problems but as you said alone it is hard and I agree. But the hardest thing is that even when you thought no one will or can support you still came on 7 cups and shared your story and this is THE most important step - reaching out for help. And I hope you will get the needed helping hand beside you are on the best possible site where everyone is ready to make your day better. :) <3