Dreading the rest of 2020
I feel really sad and anxious right now. Been thinking about my ex and how he had anxiety as well. Don't know if I got it from him or that being with him was my coping mechanism if that makes sense. Like I feel overly sensitive now and have spent the last 3 months with a therapist who I couldn't even connect with. Anyways, I'm glad she's out of my life but I have no other support system except my mom (whose annoyinging me lately by trying to convert me into being a Christian). I only have my plant orchids to comfort me and my professor from one of my classes. This year has so far produced the most anxiety in my entire life since I have to move out of my parents house, find a new job, and make new friends. Help! ^^
@limeMango1470 you aren't alone with these feelings. Change is HARD. You have to step out of your comfort zone. That isn't easy. You are justified to feel anxious. I wouldn't say your ex gave you anxiety. They may not have helped. Take it one step at a time. Remember to keep checking in with yourself and figure out what calms you. Coping mechanisms are a persons best friend. If you have to stop and breath you need to do just that. You got this
@limeMango1470
I love that you have orchids to tend and take care of. They're so touchy - do one wrong thing and it's all over. Well, at least for me. I can't even seem to keep a fern alive in my house. :)
Embrace this new year. Change is scary. But the one thing we have to realize is that change is happening - it's ALWAYS happening. Whether we want it to happen, whether we like it, hate it, don't want it. Things just keep moving on and moving on.
A lot of the fear we have with change is because we tend to go immediately to the negative. And I say this because it is what I do CONSTANTLY. And I'm working hard to stop doing that. So instead of thinking "I have to move out of my parents' house" spin that around. "I GET TO move out of my parents' house. I get to choose my own furnishings. I get to eat whenever I want. I get to watch everything I want on TV. I get to cook the foods I like and blast music and enjoy my own place. MY place.
You've really got some great moments ahead. Really!!!
