Advice Needed: I'm anxious, while my roommate has PTSD & depression
So... Today could be going better and it's my fault. I know that much is true.
I don't wanna go into too much detail but here's the basic deal. About 8 months ago, my best friend moved in with me because her living situation with her parents was toxic and damaging to her mental health. She has survived a lot. As a result, she has depression and PTSD.
Then there's me. I've never been diagnosed with anxiety or anything, but I'm a very anxious person. I'm socially awkward, I fidget with my hair whenever my hands are free, and I worry constantly.
Before my bestie moved in, I worried about her constantly. It killed me that I couldn't help her much from a distance. I could only talk and try to make her feel better. It only sometimes worked.
Now that she lives here, I think she's doing better. She's in a safe place where can try to heal, at least. However, I keep inadvertently hurting her. I try so hard to be mindful of her triggers but it's not enough. Seemingly small, possibly annoying things I do have a greater impact on her than I expect. My white lies and mistakes send her reeling, spiraling down a dark path. It's a lot of pressure and responsibility.
My question is this: How do I control my anxiety and other negative emotions while I crack down on my bad habits and work on being more considerate?
I'm afraid that I'll start overthinking every little thing I do until my anxiety takes over completely.
Or I'll just keep messing up.