PANIC/INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS
I feel like this is the third day I've posted in here I've had no sign of letting up. I'm fearing this is the end and it's going to last forever. I feel so weird and different. I was just fine, I'd been fine on the intrusive thoughts for a good year. Now I've had some awful thought about my boyfriend, Saturday and it's cycled into this awful feeling of utter guilt and numbness. I'm absolutely terrified. I know I'd never do the things the intrusive thoughts say but I can't let go of the fact I'm thinking them. I can't imagine feeling this horrified for the rest of my lfe,I just recently sought help yesterday and I had a bit of hope and in a flash, it was gone that night. I don't even have a psychiatrist appointment till April 5th. I'm so panicked I'm losing mind. Now I have a whole bunch more thoughts that I don't love my family and boyfriend. Will it end!? I'm scared and need hope has anyone had luck with a medication to combat the intrusive thoughts?