I'm lost
I fell in love with this guy almost 2 years ago. he is my batchmate. anyways he said to his friends that he's not interested in me so i had to forget about him. it's been hard but i was able to not think about him and focus on myself. yesterday he had a really bad accident and broke his arm and after hearing that i was shaking and couldn't stop worrying and crying. today is his operation. and after that incident i haven't been able to stop thinking about him and hadn't had any work or study done. the thing that bugs me is that if it were me, if i was the one with the accident, he wouldn't even bother to even think or worry about me. And THAT HURTS. it hurts a lot. here i am worrying all day and night about this person who doesn't even care about me. i cannot even do anything to help him and that hurts too. is this what reality is about? i don't want this mental pain neither do i want him to go through this physical pain! i haven't talked to anyone since no one understands my feelings. somebody help me if u are capable to. that would be really helpful. usually i come here to vent but today i am here to ask for help because i'm very vulnerable today and don't know how to help myself.
@sensitiveBalsam7250 I'm sorry sweetie 😢 our minds work in funny ways. We can care and love even if the other person doesn't. I'm not really sure what to say to comfort you properly. Sorry. But I can give you a giant festive tiny hug ❤squeezes you tightly ❤❤ I hope you will be ok ❤❤ I hope he will too
@sensitiveBalsam7250
You clearly care a lot about him among those feelings, because all of this has you questioning.
Think he'd mind if you checked in on him? It's valid, because breaking your arm sucks. Maybe you could even sign his cast. 🤭 It might not be meant to be, but honestly, just a sincere action like that might bring the whole situation to a better place overall.
@Torean thank you. i wanted to text him and talk but my friend said "if i was hurt he would never even think about me or bother to care about me" and so i didn't talk to him. i keep missing him a lot and i've been really depressed cuz of everything going on and i cannot talk to anyone cuz no one gets how much i care about him. they just tell me to ignore and forget about him. i'm sorry for venting like this i'm just really vulnerable nowadays.
@sensitiveBalsam7250
No need to apologize 🙂, it's exhausting and depressing to be in a situation like that, and that's at the very least. Anyway, people talk a lot. They don't understand your feelings, and they don't speak for him either. It's your life, so it's best to be true to yourself. You're not being selfish by caring and having your own feelings. You question yourself and that's good... Just don't let it cripple you into a path you don't actually want. I won't give you direct advice, but it's easier if you be the person you want to believe you can be in the situation... It may or may not change the situation, and you might feel vulnerable, but that's a time to remember that there's so much more to you, and for you. It can be hard to see it that way, but I hope you can find your peace, even in the midst of these feelings.