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Torean
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PathStep 103 Compassion hearts6,134 Forum posts5,613 Forum upvotes6,476 Current upvotes6,476 Age GroupAdult Last activeNovember, 2024 Member sinceSeptember 1, 2014
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'Tween the horror of space, and the terror of time.

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Torean and Kiara: 10th dan
Pen Pals / by Torean
Last post
 9 hours ago
...See more It's not some dude named Dan, it's a rank, and only 5 people have ever achieved it. We strive for that kind of greatness. Could we ever get to a place where learning doesn't exist? I don't know. But learning doesn't exist for you here, so get out of our dojo! Please don't read, heart, or comment on posts here, it makes us feel weird. Even dedicated warriors don't want to feel weird.
Torean and Kiara 9th Circle of Awesome
Pen Pals / by Torean
Last post
 50 minutes ago
...See more Because let's face it, if we spent eternity in awesome, which we definitely will, we would be on the deepest level of it. Except I guess it has a basement, but that's just filled with jars of olives or something. So, we're here, and you're not. *Please* don't comment or heart posts here, you can hang out with us elsewhere. I'm saying it again to the people who ignore and do it anyway, *please* don't. Ok? Ok.
Neon Smiles
Poetry / by Torean
Last post
 October 12th
...See more Slight violence/blood trigger warning? (I hope that this one is enjoyable, it was inspired by a certain lovely person in my life. ❤️) Neon Smiles I associate love with the smell of gunpowder, With sneaking around in the dark. Yeah, I associate love with nerves, The ball of organs inside trying to stay warm, Like hibernating snakes. You see that wild look in my eye, And you know I've bled for the game, I've bled for the machine, I've bled for the experiment, And I've done it strategically. This is truly me, This is the truest anything gets, I've lied through a thousand lives, But this truest form sees all. I've seen a ghost pop up in the TV, Been told I look so cool after watching a movie, I see something in the screens they mean to hide, It comes out in tunes I tried to replicate as a child, And I just got in trouble for making noises. The creepy dolls sitting on the top step, Tell me there's a whole world up there I don't have to worry about. The smiling neon faces are my guides, To the world I'm ready to return to when I'm done fighting. And as soon as I make it to the next room, They close the door and I know I'll have to bleed again. I laugh when they hurt me, I joke at their determined orders and uniform, And I realize why fighting and conniving never worked… They don't want to be here either, They just don't realize it. It's ok to bleed for a game, We’re not going to play without the pain, Just without the suffering. What color will your neon smile be? Bodies pressed up to each other in the grass, Dark outside and the shots and voices audible, All the seriousness of conflict and love, We’ve got better places to be, Let's keep this party moving. @jesusredeemedme2425 @Tinywhisper11
Stuttering Stanley
Poetry / by Torean
Last post
 October 11th
...See more Stuttering Stanley Tentacles, probably, Some sort of pincers, perhaps, Claws, maybe, The same vice grip that a predator would use on any sort of prey or victim. Jaws wide… Teeth… very present… I’ve been confused for something else, Time for a defense mechanism… fight or flight… Stuttering Stanley! Stuttering Stanley! STUTTERING STANLEY! STUTTERING STANLEY! I’m a case, clearly, More than a bit dangerous, apparently, Neurotic, so it seems, Insecurities across the spectrum from just. Such. Things. Pupils dilated, Fire… just behind my gaze… Maybe you’re confused as to who is dominant, Watch me ignite destruction in ways that you weren’t prepared to stomach. I know it ain’t pretty, and ain’t nobody happy now, But did I stutter this time? I know that you heard me loud and clear… Did I stutter this time? DID I STUTTER? @jesusredeemedme2425 @Tinywhisper11 (I could explain this one, but it's probably more fun if I don't 😂)
The Burden
Poetry / by Torean
Last post
 October 7th
...See more (This is a new one, just a particularly dark corner of something or other, and I just feel kind of sad and angry.) The Burden Help me, I've been given something sacred, So sacred that I can't even bear to look at it. Please, I'm crying out to be relieved of this burden, That sits heavier than any sin. Somebody, I've been cursed and afflicted, With all the love in the world, And all the darkness that comes with it. Keep me through the next centuries. Keep me in ways that can't be measured. They won't upload me, They won't download any updates to me. And I'm anything but obsolete, I'm anything you need, but… I've tried to look something pure in the eyes, But I just grind my teeth, I just give myself eye strain, I have a sore throat, Or is that from all the screaming? I just want my heart pounding, I want to feel my skin break out in gooseflesh, I want to feel my mouth go dry, When this burden is lifted. I want to feel like I'm falling, Because I know I will be… Something so sacred, so beautiful, I can't believe I'm saying this, But I just can't be responsible, To keep anything sacred, Let alone this. You let something in... You let something stay... I saw you... The moment I closed my eyes... I witnessed the greatest evil imaginable, The day I got lost trying to map out paradise, The day I fell somewhere between realities, The day I got really sick and couldn't join everyone... I saw you... You laughed... The burden has a twin in reflection, All the burden remains... My hands hesitate to feel my pocket, To see whether I dropped my keys, Or if they just got heavier. @jesusredeemedme2425 @Tinywhisper11
Torean and Kiara The 8th vanguard
Pen Pals / by Torean
Last post
 October 20th
...See more I had to look that word up. Anyway, we're secretly inventing so many improvements to the world. They're super secret. So secret that you won't even feel your life improving. But while we're in here, making the world a better place, you stay out there, ok? And you can gather outside like weirdos and gawk at this sign, but please, don't try to come in, or your entire life might just feel like a spoiler. Also, I'm asking nicely. And no loitering!
The Gargoyle With No Eyes
Poetry / by Torean
Last post
 September 26th
...See more @Tinywhisper11 @Jesusredeemedme2425 The Gargoyle With No Eyes I sink down to my room, As soon as my soul is thicker than air. It’s very, very dark in here, Watched over by the gargoyle with no eyes. Surrounded by void, Wondering what’s outside the door. All of this possibility, And not one speck of this blackness showed me any love. No love, I look longingly at the door, But that part of me is closed off… The eyeholes full of possibility, They see nothing. They wouldn’t need to see anything but me here. And it doesn’t matter, since it knows me so well. Never gonna be able to build a home out of this, I’ll never build any place with a shred of innocence. I’ll never build anything but a place for this door to go, But that part of me is closed off… I guess I can’t manifest, I just need to keep sinking. Secret cupboards in the floor, At least my gargoyle knows where I am. (This is a poem I made about depression. It was about a time when I had to move into the house I inherited from my dad. He left the entire house full of junk and boxes, and the one place I could really get to was a bedroom that was mostly empty except for a gargoyle that was sitting on the shelf. I wish I still had that gargoyle, but this poem kinda explains the mindset that made me get rid of it.)
Cool strangers
Icebreakers and Games / by Torean
Last post
 September 17th
...See more Who's the coolest stranger that you've met in person? They could be super kind, like a guy I met in a long line, that he knew was going to be long, so he brought fold-out chairs for people who needed them. Or it could just look cool and interesting. Like, one time a girl ran by me and started climbing something parkour style to get away from an actual angry mob, while laughing. I have no idea what that was about, but I was kinda crushing for a moment.
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