Hi
Hello,
I'm 36, struggling with lonliness.
I've recently ended a long friendship as it had become toxic and they were my only friend.
A lot of the friends I had don't bother with me. I stupidly experimented with seeing how long it would take people to reach out to me first as I got tired of being the one who chased. It didn't go well. Many many months.
I understand that people's lives move in different directions but I didn't expect a lonely path.
I have started to make new friends but im not at the point where I trust them not to abandon me yet.
I'm married and have been with my wife for 12 years, we've been fighting a lot lately which is not like us at all.
I just feel so alone. My life doesn't feel worth the stress. I'm not planning on ending it, but I am contemplating walking away from everything.