Have you ever gotten to that point...
You ever get to that point that so much has happened in the past months, that your emotions go
numb? You still have them. But, they are definitely in "I don't care" mode. That's where I am at. I'm tired of fighting the anxiety, the depression and everything in between. Tired of trying to control situations where I clearly cannot. Mainly in my current relationship. So much of me is exhausted to the point of not caring anymore. Just go and do what you want at this point. I'm tired. My stress has been extreme in other departments of this life. I'm 42 and just done. I just want to go home, shut the world out and hang out with my cat. He get's me. LOL If you've made it this far, thank you.
@HopefulOne81 yes i am feelin the same like numb emotions... and i want to cry but i am unabl
I haven’t gone numb exactly, but I have had to bury my vulnerability. It is strange, because I would find it would poke its head out whenever someone actually cared.
Hiding vulnerability helped me get through a dire situation. Yet, I am still managing the after effects of the flood gate that came when I thought it was over. (It proved not to be over, which has really helped solidify my recently diagnosed PTSD.)
Regardless, I still do not feel safe, so I haven’t dealt with everything. However, it seeps out from time to time.
@HopefulOne81 I feel you. Hope you feel better soon. It happened to me in my childhood (took therapy as an adult to finally feel again) and it happened again these last few months. Just to much going on. A family member had surgery then ended up with kidney failure due to the pills for after the surgery. (He is doing better now) My brother also had surgery which will take at least 6 months recovery. My cat Candy who helped me out so much with my depression and anxiety had to be put down in August. She had untreatable cancer at age 10. I have other cats that are trying to help but one of them is also still depressed as he grew up with Candy for 10 years. So to cope my emotions went way down to feel almost nothing. I'd say its better then being depressed but it also dulls the good emotions too.
Yup. This year was tough for me. Job loss, death, new job and relocation and then breakup. So I am kind of numb overall. But I still feel the pain. I still get hurt. i still cry. But I am tired.