Everytime i remember my wedding my heart aches, do i really deserve this?
I am married to a man which but family does not approve
every-time i saw friends getting married, or a marriage related videos my heart hurt so much, i felt like i could never experience true happiness of being married.
first, at my wedding it was chaos, his family were not into it, NO ONE wish me! Or even talk to me, can you believe that? Before the wedding he clashed with his stepmom and brother, he is an orphant so everyone else in his family talks like they have the right to. The only one talking to me is his brother saying "dont influence bad things to each other (me and my husband). It was such a traumatic experience, my wedding that is supposed to be the happiest day of my life is the most misery realizing day.
maybe i deserve this, maybe i have been a bad person all this time. But i really want to escape from this
to have a new life! Im not asking for a new husband, to re experience new wedding with the right person that have a family that accepts me
i just want to move far away from here
but now i have a baby daughter. I wish i could have a job offer, move there with my baby, works and live a normal happy life.
because of my traumas i suffer from bipolar type 1, anxiety and depression. It hurts me and it certainly hurts my daughter.
i wish i could get help to move away soon. It is hurting everyday, no one to talk to, and to relate about this as no one has experience such hate from the husband family side.
im asking for anyone that read this to pray for me and my 8 months daughter
You’re going through a lot. The fact that you’re here looking for support means you’re doing the right thing. This is a great, supportive community, so you came to the right place.
My prayers are with you and your daughter
Thank you so much, this should not go in the general page, im sorry
@forcefulOceann Please do not apologize. Your experiences, thoughts, feelings and reactions are all valid and natural and normal parts of living your life!
@forcefulOceann wow, it sounds like you have a lot of stressors in your life. I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling unhappy, dealing with mental health issues, and want to re-do your wedding, possibly your whole marriage. Plus, a baby, and looking for a new job? That is a lot, and I would be feeling overwhelmed too, if I were in your shoes!
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