35 today
Apologies, absolutely atrocious punctuation etc, but I’m too overwhelmed to proof read with any real energy
I’m Laying in bed with my 8 month old and my cat
OH so horribly abusive I was left to ring in my birthday at midnight on my own crying after being called every name under the sun while he had a bath and slept in another room
iys 1.30am and I’ve been sick almost constantly for a few months now
mainly I think because I’m so depressed my immune system is now, similar thing happened when my mum was dying and the bf in my life at the time was cheating
I’m laying here and it’s weird I keep getting these waves of shivers and cold feeling and sweating even though I’m never usually a cold person and under lot of blankets
inhabe realised through pushing people away and never really having many good friends to begin with apart from him im totally alone and I feel so lonely/ extremely panicky and nervous I’m both so exhausted I can barely move and I asp can’t sit still/ my body physically aches I’m feeling so anxious scared and completely defeated by life
@Annabellab
Dont worry everything would turn up to be fine and
Happy birthday to you too
@Annabellab I'm so sorry for what you have experienced. I'm glad you are here and able to express here; you're not alone; I'm here, and there are many listeners here in 7 Cups, should you want to talk more about your feelings. All you shared is really hard; it is "uneasy" to grieve, and I admire how you have been handling all those things. Thank you for being here. Thank you for being you.
Not sure if you would ever check this post, but if you read this, I hope that you will be able to see that you are a whole on your own... That you are not a mash-up of broken pieces or a half to a significant other. I hope that you will always speak kindly to yourself. I hope that you will also speak kindly of yourself, that you are worth much more than what your mind demeans you into thinking. I hope that one day, you will be genuinely happy. I hope that you will be able to laugh until your sides ached, smile until your cheeks hurt, and have tears of joy streaming down your cheeks rather than tears of sadness.
I hope that your health recovery goes smoothly every step of the way.
Should you be curious, check out the Expert Mental Health News & Advice: https://www.7cups.com/experts/
@Annabellab Happy Birthday!
I am so sorry you are feeling so low at what should be a happy day of your life. I hope you come and read these really nice and supportive replies. There is a lot of love and compassion here, I hope you can come and reach out and find something that helps you.
Listening - One Step At A Time!
You feel defeated in this moment, but moments are fleeting. You can and will be okay. You can. You are never alone, and I am so sorry you're feeling that you are. There's something that I remind myself of daily: the sun will rise, the sun will set. To me it means every day is new. A new chance for whatever it is you hope for. Just keep having new sunrises. Happy 35th birthday. May it be a changing and beautiful year for you.
@Annabellab
Happy birthday !!
I am inviting you to the Sharing Circle chat room where you will meet and
share with other members of 7Cups.com ! 😊
Many people would feel like this with what you went through.. something that has helped me get through the hard shivers was sitting under a very warm shower.. just let the water flow and have some infusion tea right after..
and recommendation I got through different chats here, change the atmosphere randomly.
for getting appetite back, start with fruits, bananas/apples/watermelon
i am not myself healed but hoping the steps that helped me can help.
happy birthday dear! Just enjoy your time with your 8month old! Things will come whenever they need to.
I would like to say thank you to everyone that had taken the time and energy to reply
I’m feeling a little sunnier today. It’s just tough I don’t know what my brain is anymore
even replying to each message feels overwhelming I feel like it’s easier just to brick up and let no one in
does anyone have a remedy to that?