Comparison to Peers
Hi.
I've been in this mental loop for a long time now. I'm almost done with college, but I don't feel like I've changed, I'm sure I've grown a bit and learned a few lessons here and there like 'don't do this' or 'do this'. But as a person I keep wondering if I've grown.
When I see my university mates and friends I wonder if I'm turning out okay like them? And so I decided I'd change the aspects of myself I detest like being messy or sleeping late, trying to exercise more, basically getting rid bad habits and replace with good habits, honestly it's been a struggle because my progress always feels too little compared to my mates in school. I mean I see girls go to gyms everyday but I don't have that opportunity, they're consistency, it bothers me that I lack in such a nice quality to have.
And even in terms of career wise, everyone is getting new skills and becoming capable people but here I am, still wondering what skill to learn... Its crazy how certain they are to learn a specific thing, we're just starting our lives out and getting into the real world as young adults but how do these people know what they want to with their lives and why don't I know like them? As much as I want to throw myself into learning something so that I can show them that I know something too and I'm not lacking, I can't. Because my conscience keeps telling me to explore what skills excites me but if I keep exploring and everyone keeps moving with their skills when I haven't even found mine, aren't I lacking more?
Does that mean I won't succeed like how they do since I'm so slow?
