There are only two paths you can choose. You can sit quietly and be selected out of this world, or you can adapt and change!
First of all take a deep breath and relax! You know you have a problem and you will solve it! If you really want it, the world can change colors in a flash. There are some things you can’t say to someone, no matter how close you are. I know it's a lot easier to talk to a stranger so thats why I'm here. Once you miss the opportunity to say something, the words become increasingly toxic. The best thing to do is to just say everything.
The thought of death has terrifyed me for years and I never understood why no one else felt the same way, as a young person I always feared death, not so much death itself but the fear of nothingness.
This is who I am. I'm broken, shattered, not even close to perfect, and always lacking something. But this is who I am! I am who I am!
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