I'm so glad you've took the step to actually talk to someone and get everything off your chest, a good chat with someone who understands can do you the world of good. I have been through so much myself and i just wish i'd of had someone to help me when i needed someone, i believe we learn from each others personal experiences and talking to someone who's gone or going through the same thing as you doesn't just help you but it helps them too. I'd like to say I'm a bit of an open spiritual person and i don't believe in judging anyone, I'm open and i'll share my own personal experiences with you and try and help with anything in anyway i can. Chat to me anytime