Introduction
Not sure if I've got this in the right place, but here goes:
I'm 63, married 45 years with a 43 year old son. We all live together in a house we just bought last year. It was a BIG move. From Southern California (where it just got too expensive) to Northern Illinois (where we thought it would be cheaper). The adjustment has not been easy. There have been a lot of arguments and disagreements.
A big issue for me is resentment and frustration with where I am in my life. Secondary to that is knowing that I cannot make any changes short of leaving my current situation entirely. A daunting thought, though something I have considered often the past 20 years. (I know! What is wrong with me?)
Right now I am struggling with a deep lethargy. I just don't care enough any more. It hurts too much to care when it does no one any good. It's like prayers. It's just wishes in the air going nowhere and doing nothing. I don't believe in wishes and I don't believe there is any hope.
And you wonder why I don't have any friends. (Debbie Downer, am I right?)