Visiting my mom’s grave site
I don’t go to my moms grave very often. I was too depressed and over stressed on Mother’s Day. I went last week and hung out for about 15 minutes and told her some new things that were happening in my life. When it was time to go, I felt that I was ok to leave. As soon as I started to say goodbye, I started to get choked up and felt that I couldn’t leave her there. I feel like I am leaving her all over again. My mom passed when I was about to turn 19. She had lung cancer and it hit her very fast. There was nothing that she could do. She lived about 7 weeks after her diagnosis in the hospital. She came home on hospice for 6 weeks. She has been gone for 18 1/2 years now. I had never actually grieved for her. I did stay angry for a long time and I didn’t face reality that she was gone for a long time. I miss her everyday. Its just so very hard to leave her.
Hey @pinkPine6124
Goodness, I don’t think grief ever has a time scale, you could be angry for years and then it hits you that she is no longer there. My heart sunk when I read your forum and I wanted to welcome you to 7Cups personally.
Is there anything we can do to support you during this difficult time?
Best wishes
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@FrenchMarbles
Thank you for the personal welcome. I'm very sorry that I am replying so late. I had a rough start to my summer and I actually quit doing 7 Cups for a few months. I wasn't feeling like I wanted the help any longer. I am back now. So thank you.
Grief is very hard and it does hit me in different ways and times of the day. Sometimes it makes me so angry and other times, I am a crying mess. Like now. :)
Thank you for taking the time to leave me kind words of hope.
I miss my mom, too. She's been gone 14 years, and there are times when I just miss my mommy. She drowned and no one knew for a couple days. It was a blessing to be able to mourn her death as hard as I did because of the sudden nature of the death. I never grieved anything b4 that, like losing my childhood to abuse and innocence to kidnapping.
May her light continue to shine down on u and fill u with warmth and hope.