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I wish i was strong enough
SunFlower8383 November 3rd, 2021

I was bullied when i was 13 or 14.My classmates called me a stick,they mocked me,they made fun of my voice,weight and behavior.The teachers did nothing.I'm afraid of saying no,expressing my opinions or feelings in front of others.I told them to stop but they didn't.I felt like...l-like a joke...I'm not bullied anymore but i didn't forgot what happened.I know i was just a stupid kid...i know...i don't know what's wrong with me or maybe...it was my fault because i was so stupid...They didn't take me seriously when i spoked to them,they made fun of me...One of them wanted to eat my food,just a little but when i told them that i don't want to give them my food anymore they called me selfish...Why i'm so weird...so stupid...so weak...i thing the bullying affected me somehow...i'm afraid of what people would think about me,i'm afraud of expressing my opinions or feelings,i'm afraid of conflicts and somehow people...

Maybe i deserved that...i wish i was strong enough...i tried to be nice to them i really tried but they didn't stop bullying me.I don't know why i didn't forgot what happened,it happened a few years ago,why i'm still affected?

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jotee November 5th, 2021
hey @SunFlower8383, you're not the only victim! we all feel you here!

bullies don't look for an excuse to bully somebody. there's nothing wrong with you! pretty, smart, and friendly people are being bullied. you don't have to be a weird, stupid, or ugly person to be bullied! i was bullied / emotionally abused by my sister. i am prettier than her, in some ways smarter than her, have more friends than her... she was just jealous of me.

it sounds like you are siding with the bullies against yourself when you talk badly of yourself. “i was so stupid” “i'm so weird.” and then you say its your fault and you deserve it.... Do you honestly believe what you're saying is true??????? I used to have a recording in my brain saying "youre dumb, and stupid". but thats the bullies doing! please dont believe this crap about yourself!!!! please love yourself!

you didn't deserve it! yes your teachers and classmates should have stepped in and stood up for you.

chances are that you are a kind, compassionate, good person. because thats what bullying does to you. it shows you the worst of humanity and makes you become a kinder person. you have something that not everybody has. you have the power to be there and help others that are being hurt. only somebody that experienced pain can help others through it. you can look out for others in high school, college, or at your job, whichever stage you are now in.

i know youre in pain. but the best thing to do for yourself is start healing. find good friends, go to therapy, read some self help books.

take care of yourself, ❤️ Jo
SunFlower8383 OP November 5th, 2021

Thank you,i will try to be more kind with myself.Thank you.You are right,it wasn't my fault.Healing can take months even years but i can atleast try

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