I'm messed up?

I'm a shy person and i think that time when i was bullied messed me up.I was so playful,so fun,i had so much energy in me and i wasn't afraid.Now i'm afraid of being judge by oeople,i don't want to be judged,i don't want to be hated,i don't want to be weird.My mom,my grandma,my aunt told me that i should talk more,that i should stop being shy but no one told me how.I have friends and they are very supportive but they are not local friends.I like things,i have goals,i can go to supermarket,school,restaurants but i feel overwhelmed when i'm around people.It's difficult to trust people and it takes me a phew minutes to aswer and i answer most of the time with "yes","maybe","no" "sometimes".

My family,my teacher called me shy but no one who i saw with my eyes in my entire life helped me.I just want to be me without being called weird or laughed,bullied.I'm trying,i'm really trying but it's so hard